last post about ranked restrictions

please riot. i get it. i was an asshole. ok i understand that. im trying my BEST to work on it. but this ranked restriction prisoner island BS isn't helping me at all. forcing me to play 30 games of normal draft would be fine. but forcing me to WIN 30 games of normal draft? it's maddening. normals draft is plagued with dc's ___ or feeds, and just terrible matchmaking. 4 days ago when i made my first post, i was at 10 games to win. today im at 4 games left. the number of games where i've gotten people much higher rank than me, or people much higher rank that the rest of my team but same rank as me is ridiculous.

its horrible. and it doesn't make me feel any less toxic. in fact, its making me so incredibly mad before i even start a game because i know exactly what's going to happen. im a competitive guy, and i like to win. i really hate when im doing well, and something stupid like a dc, or just an outmatched teammate who's b2 gets match up against a high silver/low gold. its completely unfair to ask me to WIN 30 games when this game is a TEAM BASED game, and is plagued with constant server issues, and a terrible matchmaking system.

im at the end of my rope here. i know there's no sympathy for someone who was toxic, and im ready for the downvotes. but im trying to get better and be less toxic, and this system is not helping me at all. its a struggle to stay nice and happy when i get unfair matchups left and right, dcers, trolls, or whatever.

i just want to win my last 4 games so i never have to step foot in the horrible draft normals experience ever again i can guarantee right now that after this horrid experience, i will never ever be toxic again because there is NOTHING worse than this horrible matchmaking system/lack of all around interest in normals draft.