I feel like i can no longer play what i want,where i want,however i want and have fun with it

I remember back when i started that i could do that,i could play gp in every lane,i could play urgot in every lane and have fun while doing so,building what I WANT,customizing my runes however I WANT and not getting frustrated by the people who are playing the "meta picks" even on normals so they can win because unlike the old days now you never see someone trying out something new or something unique,everyone is scared that they are going to get flammed by their team and that no matter what theyll do they will get fucked in lane since the enemy plays something "meta"

Riot,what changed? In my personal opinion i believe its the youtube videos showing of the cancerous picks and builds+the riots inability to balance the game.

Most games i play,i play because i can actually be "me". For example i play call of duty and i play with a sniper class EVERY CALL OF DUTY GAME,then i edit my attachments "old runes" and my perks "also old runes" however i want so i can have fun while playing

What i do playing LOL nowadays? I dont have fun getting fucked by a zed on mid so i pick a lissandra or a fizz or something that can counter him since he is way too broken and getting buffed with the item changes since season 6 which means that i dont play what it want and on top of that i have to play with the stopwatch rune so i dont get completely fucked which is a rune that i fucking hate.

I play bot Kai'Sa so i can actually "play" the game since most adcs are not viable now and no i do not feel good getting a rageblade and AS boots and just W someone and press my R and then Q and 3 AA and delete them with 130 attack damage and 1.1 AS.

I no longer feel "skilled" playing the game and getting rewarded feels shit,i got a rageblade AS boots Nashors and suddenly i went 1v1 the 9/0 draven and got like 600g? Am i supposed to feel nice about it? please.

Anyway im going to be backing off from the game for good this time,uninstalled and my new pc parts are on the way...i wanna play the game-i really do but i cant seem to find enjoyment anymore.......