Silver is so stressful.

#Disclaimer: I'm just venting how I personally feel. If you wish to use "LOL I SEARCHED YOU ON OP.GG AND YOU HAD A BAD GAME ONCE HAHA #DEBUNKED" as a counterpoint, then so be it.

Over the years, you've gradually made League more and more team-oriented, to the point where games are decided by which troll turns the game into a 4v6, instead of by which smurf can 1v9. If you're a good player, you still NEED other players on your team to be at least competent in order to win. Because if you're the only good player on your team, and the enemy becomes aware of this in the mid-game, there's a chance they'll use all of their hard cc on you, chaining you down for as long as it takes for you to die whilst your team stands around you, thinking something dumb like, "Look at all those abilities they just used! They'll probably use those on me if I go in, so I'll stand here and watch until all of their cooldowns refresh!" It happens. You know there are people in Silver who don't capitalize on enemy cooldowns.

Now, this isn't always right. I've managed to win a few 1v9's and 2v8's, but that's only if and when the enemy team was only 2IQ higher than my team. Because Silver is a coinflip ELO. You've all heard my rants about how Silver isn't a real elo. There are people like me in Silver, with Gold borders and screwed over by going 8/2 in the preseason placements and still dropping 7 tiers. We farm safely, we don't overextend, we make good trades, we ward, we check the map for upcoming ganks, and we simply don't feed over and over because "I SAW NB3 DO THIS." But then, there are those fresh, level 30 accounts that get placed in Silver MMR to do their first 10 provisional games, who do the exact opposite. So one feeding pile of trash has the ability to impact up to 45 Silver/Gold players before getting placed in Bronze where they belong.

It's reaching the point where I can't even enjoy it, anymore. I don't even get angry at the enemy when they 5v1 me under my own tower. I'm just angry at the 0/4/0 top, mid, adc and jungler for giving them enough gold to give me my first death. Even in my last game, I carried as Rakan support. I landed my heals, I shielded the person getting focused, and I cc'd the person who did damage. But my ADC made that as non-enjoyable as possible. I was 4/0/5 at one point. We were teamfighting, so I ulted in, brought 3 people down to 400 health all on my own, procced my delayed Q heal, and then I E'd back to my ADC for a good trade and a heal. Except, my ADC flashed away when I did that, leaving me vulnerable as I walked towards him as fast as I could. I spam-pinged for assistance, for all Varus had to do was STOP walking for 0.35 seconds, as Varus stood 2 pixels outside of my E casting range. He didn't. He just continued to walk. And after the enemy finally killed me, they killed him as well, making it all pointless. He did it TWICE in a row! I wasn't just tilted. I was infuriated. I was outraged!

Do you think I wake up in the morning and think, "Whom shall I publicly call a 'mother fucking mother fucker' today?" Do you think anyone gets on League and thinks, "I can't WAIT for my ADC to ruin this game for me and make me lose 19 LP?" No! No one does! But I did what anyone who knows the pain of a bad ADC does: I stole his CS, I stole his kills, and I ignored him in teamfights and let him die. Not only because that little piece of shit deserved it, but because if I can let go of the pretentious fallacy that we need an ADC to win games, we can turn things around and win without him. So I ignored the little bastard. I let him rot. I gave him the grey screen of a lifetime. And you know what? I helped my top, and I helped my mid. I healed/shielded them, and I built full AP so I could 2v1 the enemy ADC and support. So in the end, I went 16/2/18, I earned an S+, and I won us the game.

But even in the post-game screen, my mid said "I hate supports like this!" because I was deemed "toxic" for saying "Someone please get an Executioner against the mundo" around 20 times in that 40-minute game, because no one bothered to. My ADC said, "STFU RAKAN, U GARBAGE SUPP, REPORTED," because he had no idea how to farm/kite/look at his damn map, and I was done paying for his mistakes. Did I have fun completely stomping that game? Honestly, yes and no. I truly enjoyed the mechanics Rakan has when it comes to going in, out, in and out of fights. There's a feel of whimsy and majesty to it. But my team still found a way to suck the joy out of every second of it with their poor decisions, over and over again.

I've been to Gold 2 before. I enjoyed every second of it! I felt free! I felt like I could actually have an impact in my games that my teammates could appreciate. But in Silver, it feels like nothing I do matters --- that I'm just a mere 10% in an equation of "How many people will feed in this match." A variable. A factor. Nothing with a soul. Just a number.

I hate Silver.