Something that happened to dyrus on stream just now that always happens to me
"I dont want to do any of this right now. This is really bad. We are throwing back and forth when I have a really huge advantage".
This is what happens in a lot of my games. Its like a bunch of crazy shit is happening for no reason and none of it can possibly benefit our team. TBH. I have no idea why it happens or what my teammates do that are causing it or how to stop it, but the game wont calm down long enough for me to do something useful to stabilize things.
Maybe its like my team feels the situation is desparate times. While my team does a bunch of desperation tactics that require my aid to keep the game from ending, my advantage slowly bleeds away as I carry/mitigate my teams mistakes until its late game. Then i finally crack and one small mistake on my part decides the game.
"I dont want to do this. Let me out of here". Feels bad man.