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I feel like some of the toxicity of other players has rubbed off on me.

Galewings·5/29/2015, 4:41:43 AM·1 votes·299 views

So is it just me? I clearly remember when I started playing this game I knew about the game's piss poor community and I told myself I would always do my best to be positive in every game.

So after hundreds of games and countless occasions of people insulting me for bad plays, making an error, being miss positioned, being a shit jungler that deserves to get cancer and the best of all, people blaming me for their own mistakes (let's face it, we've all had that ADC that pushes the lane in with no vision and gets easily killed while you're backing for items and calls you an idiot for not being there) I feel that I've become more toxic than ever. I ignored it at first, and I stayed positive but starting a few weeks ago I can't help but be toxic.

Now I'm not the kind of toxic person that will say something like "wow you're shit at jungling uninstall" or "Holy shit are you mentally challenged" I'm the kind of toxic person that makes sarcastic remarks when someone makes a mistake. For example, our top laner (who's been toxic) makes a bad dive and gets killed by the enemy before I can get there and help, I'll say something like "What a god dive" or "Is that (insert professional top laner here)?". It's become my defense mechanism when I get other toxic teammates. And now it's starting to spread to players who aren't even toxic.

I'm not proud of it at all, and today I got a warning message for negative attitude for the first time in almost a year of playing this game. I hate being like that, I know my sarcasm does not help at all and can even hurt people's feelings. I regret it, I want to go back to being positive. But I can't help it because it's my only weapon against people who are way more toxic and insult me for even the slightest error.

Yes I know there's a mute button but I don't think that stops the person from reading what I type, or at least the other players on the team.

1 Comments

Kendra5/29/2015, 5:07:08 AM1 votes

Nah, it's not just you. I personally feel like I also internalize a lot of the toxicity and negativity directed at me in game, and it sucks knowing that you've let some losers on the internet get to you like that, but sometimes it's really hard to just shake that kind of thing off. And while I'm never really outright toxic in games, similar to you I often have a really bad overall attitude that brings down my team, saying things like 'don't bother ganking at this point it's way too late' when I've lost lane, or starting surrender votes every 3 minutes when my kda is negative even when everyone else is doing well.

I honestly hate myself so much for being like that, and I wish I could just stay positive and have fun playing after a game where a teammate tells me to kill myself, get cancer, uninstall etc. But it's so much easier said than done.

Honestly, the best solution I've found is to just avoid solo queue altogether if I'm having a rough day. I'll queue with at least one good friend, we'll get on skype and just relax and, even if we do bad, we can just make fun of ourselves and still have a good time. And if someone starts flaming, at least we have someone to stand up for us, rather than the classic solo queue teammates that stay completely silent or, even worse, pile on with the abuse.

So tl;dr, just keep your chin up, find good friends to play with and if all else fails, just take a break from league altogether and do something else till you calm down.