I'm adapting my play because I have to, not because I want to.

I've started playing more carry-style champions these days. Not because I want to. I don't want to. I don't like carry style champions.

I like crowd control champs. I like supportive champions. I like initiators and peelers. I like enabling my team to win the fight, and eventually the game.

By design, these champions typically don't have any real threatening combat power or lane-pushing power. You're never going to see a full tank jungle amumu go take down 3-5 people by himself. you're never going to see a full tank jarvan go solo-split a side lane and take 2 turrets off of one push.

But man... when you land those game-changing team fight abilities, or when you keep your carries alive against all odds... THAT'S the good stuff. That's what makes me love this game. Knowing that, without me, we wouldn't have won that fight. Without me, we wouldn't have won that game. Knowing that my carries are fed as SHIT because I kept them alive, and I presented them with targets to kill.

That's what makes this game great, for me.

But I can't do any of that anymore, at least not reliably. I play champs like Amumu, Sejuani, Tank Jarvan, Ivern, Rammus. Champions that take a decent bit of time to scale up and really come on line. Sure, you can do some fancy stuff with them early. Sure you can get the lucky game where you just so happen to be carrying the game as a tank. It happens.

But most games i feel like the game just moves too goddamn fast for me to ever really matter on these champions. One way or the other.

Either my team is 15-0 and would be winning whether I was in this game or not or my team is 0-15 and I have no real means to carry the game myself, so I'm left wandering around wondering when we can forfeit.

Its not up to me anymore. There's no big team fight moments. There's no big nail-biter fights at baron. There's no come-from-behind victories where I landed that huge 5-man amumu ultimate in front of our nexus turrets and my Vayne got a pentakill. There's none of that.

Either my team gets fed, or we lose. Sometimes I'm the cause of that, sometimes I'm not. But more often than not, by the time I'm ready to start doing amumu things, or start doing sejuani things, or really start shielding the ever-loving SHIT out of my team as Ivern.... The game's already over. My team is either already pushing inhibitors, or our inhibitors are dying.

So now I'm relegated to trying to learn carry-style champions like Xin Zhao, Warwick, Master Yi, Damage J4, etc.

And I do alright. I make some pretty sweet plays. I've carried my fair share of games.

But that's not how I want to play this game. That's how I'm being forced to play this game. It doesn't feel good. Its not as fun.