I've thought about buying a diamond account.
Just to prove to myself once and for all whether or not I can hang.
Cuz I have this thought in my head. I have this thought that if I could ever machete my way out of the fucking godless toxic cesspool that is silver, I'd be fine. I'd either stay low gold forever, or maybe I'd even climb into high gold or low plat.
Cuz that's all I think I am. Mid gold. Maybe high gold. MAAAYYYBE plat if I really got super serious and no-lifed this game and did all I could to improve myself every day 24/7. Then maybe plat.
But I'm not a silver player. I play with plat players regularly. I play with diamond players occasionally. Colleagues from work, old classmates from college. I have access on a regular basis to 3 plat players, 2 diamond players, and 1 master player.
They routinely tell me they have no fucking idea how I'm hardstuck silver. They routinely invite me to their games with their high elo friends, and I never feel out of place. I never feel like a detriment. And at least one of them in particular would be QUICK to tell me if I was, and I wouldn't be invited.
No, I fit right in. Do just fine. I mean I'm not smashing anyone by any means, but I pull my weight.
I got out of silver twice. Once during a regular season, and once during a pre-season. During the pre-season I almost made platinum. Got into my promo series at gold 1. Didn't make it -- but fuck.... I got into the damn series. Thats big for me.
So I know I can do it.
It just sucks to go through 200-300 games a season to get there because silver is such a clusterfuck, finally get out after the whole damn season of effort --- only to get put right back in it at the beginning of the next season's placement matches. Its just a never-ending grind. Its beyond frustrating.
I just wonder what might happen to me if I was falling down into my rank instead of having to climb up to it.
