I empathize with you. It is very hard to even try anymore because Malzahar is so weak now.
I mean, I am seriously embarrassed to play him "competitively".
So, I stopped.
I just can't play him in ranked anymore. If I want to play, I will just go norms.
Laughing and crying about how pathetic the champ is.
But, there are not many options when its your favorite champ. It feels a lot like watching a movie where you know your favorite character is going to die... but you watch anyway.
I know when I pick Malzahar, I am going to lose. I certainly won't win do my efforts. There is NO way I can carry with Malzahar. Its a joke.
Nevertheless, I REFUSE to play Ranked and ruin it for people who want to play competitively.
Its the best I can do until Riot sends Malz some real buffs to his over-nerfed kit.