I wanna fucking die

I know I'm toxic. Just please, look at this. This isn't a "OMG I DID NOTHING WRONG" post; I just want you to see the context.

Game 1 Pre-Game Ok sure but why: wot Ok sure but why: oof Ok sure but why: my last 6 adcs went 0/12 tbbh Ok sure but why: i just noticed our gp jungle Ok sure but why: and we have no knockups, rip yasuo In-Game Ok sure but why: ty Ok sure but why: i almost ignited the wrong lb Ok sure but why: just an honest question Ok sure but why: when darius pulled yas Ok sure but why: why did it make his Q go right through darius Ok sure but why: dam Ok sure but why: veig Ok sure but why: you want me to supp instead? since you literally won't leave my lane for some reason Ok sure but why: oof Ok sure but why: gj Ok sure but why: dang gj Ok sure but why: yasuo what the fuck Ok sure but why: holy shit Ok sure but why: is that why you refuse to FARM SAFELY UNDER TURRET? Ok sure but why: gg please report yasuo Ok sure but why: wanna take a guess Ok sure but why: salty i get a feeding dipshit for the 7th game in a row Ok sure but why: ya Ok sure but why: i roamed both Ok sure but why: this yasuo is beyond horrible Ok sure but why: i know you wouldn't complain Ok sure but why: he's giving you free lp Ok sure but why: don't bullshit Ok sure but why: getting chased Ok sure but why: yasuo you dumb whore Ok sure but why: i at least didn't give 300 gold each time Ok sure but why: he's literally inting Ok sure but why: you're being handed a free win and you're still complaining Ok sure but why: wanna take a guess Ok sure but why: i can easily type and play Ok sure but why: this actual cripple yasuo is incapable of either Ok sure but why: he's not even trying to not int Ok sure but why: yeah fuck off Ok sure but why: i like how everyone's focusing me just to fuck with my kda Ok sure but why: "lol talon's not good, look at how i was able to kill him after yasuo gave me a free 3000 fucking gold xD" Ok sure but why: he's literally 2/10/2 Ok sure but why: lb Ok sure but why: if you had mana, i wouldn't have done that Ok sure but why: maybe you should consider not playing gp jg Ok sure but why: yasuo's dying in Ok sure but why: 10 Ok sure but why: 9 Ok sure but why: oh now you walk away Ok sure but why: oh nvm Ok sure but why: 4 Ok sure but why: 3 Ok sure but why: 2 Ok sure but why: 1 Ok sure but why: how predictable Ok sure but why: keep playing like fucking garbage and you won't Ok sure but why: and we did Ok sure but why: you missed your stun Ok sure but why: they're incapable of right-clicking Ok sure but why: since no one else took hard cc Ok sure but why: yas finally got off his fat ass and did anything Ok sure but why: baited Ok sure but why: who''s raging now Ok sure but why: shut up dar :^) Ok sure but why: all ur fault :^) Post-Game Ok sure but why: hey darius Ok sure but why: shut up for being salty :^) Ok sure but why: darius mad at his team Ok sure but why: report darius :^) Ok sure but why: :^^^^^^) Ok sure but why: good thing yasuo learned how to fucking play 35 minutes into the game Ok sure but why: good thing darius went out of his way to focus me like a fucking retard Ok sure but why: talon's the early game champ Ok sure but why: hence going 10/2 in the early game Ok sure but why: thanks for forcing me to suffer the late game Ok sure but why: good thing i did what a smart talon would do Ok sure but why: split push Ok sure but why: good thing darius kept focusing me Ok sure but why: i guess he wanted to make my kda look bad Ok sure but why: :^)

Game 2 Pre-Game Ok sure but why: amazing Ok sure but why: nice tele In-Game Ok sure but why: so here's the game plan Ok sure but why: don't go 0/12 Ok sure but why: thanks Ok sure but why: my last 5 adcs said deal Ok sure but why: they didn't listen Ok sure but why: great Ok sure but why: beats me Ok sure but why: ty Ok sure but why: yep Ok sure but why: start it Ok sure but why: fuck jax, goteem Ok sure but why: oo wuk started blue Ok sure but why: i can take bot scuttle Ok sure but why: yep Ok sure but why: good thing i gave mundo a lead, at least Ok sure but why: gj Ok sure but why: true Ok sure but why: yep Ok sure but why: soraka i could have fucking WALKED AWAY FROM THAT Ok sure but why: I COULD HAVE LEFT Ok sure but why: BUT I TRIED TO HELP YOUR SORRY ASS Ok sure but why: AND WHAT DO I GET OUT OF IT Ok sure but why: YOU WALK AWAY Ok sure but why: NO HEALS Ok sure but why: NO NOTHING Ok sure but why: don't mundo Ok sure but why: they'll bait you in for death Ok sure but why: literal trolls Ok sure but why: i warned you vel Ok sure but why: they're trolls Ok sure but why: draven is literally blind Ok sure but why: the 6th adc in a row to int Ok sure but why: it's called not fucking getting caught out Ok sure but why: yeah you should try it you dumb fucking monkey Ok sure but why: they're gonna take it Ok sure but why: how the fuck did you miss lux Ok sure but why: mundo ward for tp Ok sure but why: good Ok sure but why: literal trolls Ok sure but why: draven got fucking carried Ok sure but why: yep Ok sure but why: now contest baron and illbackdoor Ok sure but why: yep Ok sure but why: i guess that's what i deserve Ok sure but why: since DRAVEN WON'T FUCKING BUDGE AN INCH Ok sure but why: i fucking ganked bot Ok sure but why: that's the only reason why you have 2 assists Ok sure but why: there, they stopped baron Ok sure but why: PUSH WHILE THEY FOCUS MUNDO Ok sure but why: yep Ok sure but why: 2 inhibs open again Ok sure but why: np Ok sure but why: ugh] Ok sure but why: k Ok sure but why: i FUCKING HATE THIS DRAVEN Ok sure but why: sigh Ok sure but why: inting fucking trolls Ok sure but why: full build now Ok sure but why: gg report draven Ok sure but why: i told you grouping was a shit idea Ok sure but why: but no Ok sure but why: raka won't fucking listen Ok sure but why: YOU JUST WON'T FUCKING LISTEN Post-Game Ok sure but why: this is the 7th game in a row where my adc was an inting fucking baboon Ok sure but why: you're a fucking inting retard Ok sure but why: how the fuck do you get out of bed in the morning Ok sure but why: how do you put your fucking pants on and go to work Ok sure but why: you disabled fucking manchild Ok sure but why: you're the fucking inting mongoloid Ok sure but why: holy shit you int in every game you play Ok sure but why: how the fuck aren't you banned Ok sure but why: you son of a bitch

Oh, the irony.

I get the fact that I'm toxic. Don't pretend I'm trying to defend myself.

I just hope you realize, the whole time is literally just me crying over an inting teammate. In both games, everyone on my team was giving those inters shit for what they were doing. Some people gave them more shit than others --- me.

I don't just start matches and immediately call everyone names. No one who gets in trouble for things like this does. It's a gradual thing. It's the pain and agony of knowing you're going to lose 19 lp, and knowing that no matter how hard you want to win, someone wants you to lose more. Even in the post-game screen, Draven was boasting about it, saying, "Hah, have fun in your Silver 4, loser!" because he was busy looking up all our OP.GG's every time he inted. Which was many times.

I made a sarcastic post a few hours ago on Gameplay asking for advice on how to climb, and then I showed how my ADC's went 0/12 six games in a row. How infuriating it was to me. How I just couldn't take much more of it.

I guess after so many hours of relentless heartbreak, I just snapped. Thanks for allowing intentional feeding to be a thing.