I am really really bad at this game.

Ok bitch so?

At least you're not in bronze! Lol. Don't get yourself down bud, I'm sure you have your strengths and weaknesses. What I did to get better is realize what I was struggling with. For example, am I weak in lane but great in teamfights? This would tell me I need to work on my laning mechanics. Do I stomp my lane and get fed, but still lose? This would tell me I'm not abusing my lead to secure our victory. If you keep practicing and learning, you WILL get better.