do you know the feel when the meta is the opposite of your play style/mains gutted at same time

i used to enjoy playing the game season 5, even though i started first playing in the same patch as winter wonder ori skin 5.11 i think. i was forced to take a break for the entirety of patch 6-6.22 but thats fine. i reakky enjoyed ninja and stealth games/ character sprevious to league so i was delighted when i found the assassins and they became my first mains. ill never forget my first main akalli, winning lane than snowballing being a 1 man unkilable oneshotter.talon wasnt as face roll as akalli and he became my second main and still is i love the dude. my pattern was always starting curropting for a passive lane or a gank will score me a early dirk, then roaming and camping bot till im fed enough t oneshot thier entire team. eventually i only played talon mid and shaco jg even though i was a boosted shaco lvl 2 invade on enemy blue buff first blood was freelo. now they made talon worse as well as ad shaco, and introduced this new garbage meta, as well as gutting arm pen. i cant solo carry a bad jgler anymore no matterhow fed i get. hecarim only builds one dmg item and oneshot faster than i ever will, as well as making my bot lane useless. vi and hec kill me faster than i kill adc. i cant tocuh viegar/vel/lux anymore in lane they never have to be in range of any of my abilites to farm and poke and they can cc me if i walk up to them because oof his new q, ad shaco is just riperino. i cant play tanky or farm jgs like rammus and yi. masterys keystones are garbage the only ones that are balanced are strom raiders and grasp. everyone oneshots but talon, assassins sure a zyra that lands her abilities has a better chance. syndra only has to land one or less of her basic abilities to ult oneshot u but etter give assassins too much counterplay and gut thier burst windows. might as well make kat/rengar/lb/kha good and gut talon/zed/fizz/akali amirite