I'm Giving Up on Ranked for the Season

Just a rant that no one ever asked for and probably won't care about:

As I try and try this weekend to pull myself out of Silver 2 into Gold V... I realized that it wasn't worth it. Even though is my favorite ADC, and I love the victorious skin (and that she is getting some love), I just don't have the energy anymore. Nonstop since Wednesday I've been slaving these ranked games. And in high silver, it's a coin toss on what happens. Sometimes I do poorly, sometimes teammates do, sometimes team comps are better, sometimes there's an afk, etc.

All in all, I realized that it was becoming unhealthy. I only started playing ranked 1 month ago, so I really was not allowing enough time to relax and feel unstressed going into ranked, as I would've done throughout the year. A part of me knows there is the chance I could get to Gold (if I gave myself a year, I believe I could do it) But at this point, I don't think I would feel good about it anymore. More just ashamed I let myself get this carried away.

TLDR; I gave up, and you know what? I think I'm ready for this game to be fun again. To normals and ARAM I go!