Sucks...
I have learned so much so far playing LoL. I remember back in the day (a couple months ago) when i would get rekt because i wanted to just burst enemy champs down and would fail, or when i would lose lane to a champ without even knowing that its because that champ countered me very hard...
I have learned to keep my cool, to not be so toxic, to try and help the team and focus on objectives. I have learned to look up my counters and their abilities prior to the match so that i am aware of what they do and to play safe/aggro when its needed (for the most part). I have improved so well.
Every now and then i lose matches and its all my fault, i make mistakes etc.. A few days ago i played a ranked game with someone who told me something very interesting and im guessing he was a higher rank on a smurf acc or something; he said, while we were late game and losing by a little, "you guys do not deserve to win" in team chat. i read it and didnt take any offence, i was playing supp blitz and was doing about 3/10/17 or so (cant remember for sure). i was curious and asked em "so what can i do better?" and he replied with "stop dying pointless deaths" (or something along those lines. This was the first time i really thought about how much of an impact it really has on the overall gameplay even if im support and im doing 3/10/17 i should be doing better i shouldnt be dying so much.
About 2 weeks later i have been really trying to play well and also not die "pointless", or "reckless" deaths. It has helped me improve and im a better LoL player for it. However, it seems like the more i try, the more i learn and the harder i try, the more i put into the matches the more i get dissapointed in the end when i ultimately end up losing anyway. Now yes i still make some mistakes, but it seems that i am always lucky enough to get someone on my team who isnt a good player and feeds, or lucky enough to play against people i know for a fact are not even close to being in my rank. I just started playing ranked this season, i have played 30-40ranked matches and won about 14 of them. Provisions left me at bronze 1 after winning 4/10 matches. Thats not so bad, but my problem is i shoulda won 6/10 if it werent because my teams were so bad.
I just got demoted recently to bronze 2. I went as high as 75 LP and then on a losing streak of 4 and down to 0. I see no end to the try hard only to then die hard... seems so pointless to play ranked when deep down i feel like ima lose anyway, either someone on my team will be really bad or the other team with have very strong champions or they will simply be way too skilled to even be on our rank playing with us.
If only there was something i could do, i mean i'm already trying to improve myself in League but i am only 1 of 5 and the odds are against me most of my games. There seems to be nothing else i can do, hence the title "sucks...", because it really does. I just wanted to vent because im so upset i got demoted because my adc went like 3/16 and my jg chose a yi and didn't gank till like 10 mins in and my mid wanted to chase. Im lucky i did 5/5/5 even though i was playing top jax vs a pant (hard jax counter). Just feels so unfair. If i had a 50% win rate id be happy but its like 30-40% because i am so unlucky...
Maybe some of you will look at this (and congrats if you read the whole thing <3 ily) and think, nah you just bad you need to get betetr and carry the whole team every game. But God damn... thats all i have to say...