I completely lost hope

I am done, I won't keep trying to climb to gold, I can't, I saw my younger brother climb to gold, so people in my friends list do it, but I can't, whatever is the role I play, I get matched with unranked players, trolls, afks, every game, I swear to god, even in the games I win, everybody is toxic, the enemy team is always the opposite, they try hard, never flame, although they lose, they don't int, we just do better than them a little bit, every game, the enemy team always had higher ranked players, I had unranked players every single game, those pieces of shit who have never played the champs they picked, they int, and can I solo carry? no, no way, I tried playing meta champs, malzahar, xayah, kalista, jhin, but does it matter? does it matter if I win my lane and still see the outer and inner turrets of the other 2 lanes destroyed? 1/10, 0/12/0, believe me, there is nothing called solo carry. When I first climbed to Silver 1 in a long winning streak from S5, I swear it was S5, to be in a game I am winning, then suddenly, my support, a crucial part of the team, goes afk, and never comes back, we lose, and I lose every single game after it, just because I lost ONE game, I started to get matched with the worst teams and players ever, and I swear to god, I had game with a full silver 2/1 players against a full Gold team of gold 1/4/5, I swear. I lose of course, my support says gg we lost at 5th min, my top laner doesn't stop flaming and asking for ganks when he has the advantage, then decides to run it down mid... I swear it's all about luck, get good teams, win, a good player can't always carry, and no, I don't consider myself a god of a player, but for sure, I know well that I am as the same level of the enemy teams I play against, I have 2 days left, but I won't even try, now that I am silver 2, I just hope that next season, at least, I get placed in bronze 2.. and fuck the meta.