I genuinely want to know what's going and what I am supposed to do.
I peaked at D3 this season, which I actually don't think is my skill level. I peaked, then expected to level out.
I then dropped to P3, then went on a five game loss streak and am now P4
These are those five games
I have one game where I can look at it and say "I should have played better and I need to realize that and learn from this game." The rest of them? I have absolutely no idea. I've taken teleport and saved bot lane from being wiped in multiple games, teleporting while I have a wave pushed to tower. I succeed, and as a return I get bot lane immediately getting wiped as soon as they go back to lane and I lose a couple plates and a lot of CS top.
I play a carry champion top and do well enough, but not anywhere close to how fed my enemy bot lane gets
I play jg, and every lane just eats shit. I shutdown every enemy lane only to have them immediately get their bounties back as soon as I stop babysitting. (Dead serious, my last game I accumulated over 2k gold for my team from shutdowns)
What am I supposed to do. Am I actually supposed to assume I deserve to be dropping because my bot lane does consistently WORSE than 1-10?
I'm not mad because I can't climb back up to Diamond. I don't expect to. I've been a gold player for two season, I know I'm not suddenly good enough to go to average Diamond. I am mad because it feels like I am not allowed to put up a fight. I've looked over my match history, I have bad games that detriment my team, but I DO NOT have game like the ones I am seeing my teammates have. What, as a player who wants to focus on what they are best at, am I supposed to do to stop these kinds of games?
btw, the last two games I had the same enemy top/jg duo, I wonder what they are doing to get these kinds of matchups.