I actually managed to reach a checkpoint after going to honor level 1 !!! I am actually improving!!!

Yes, there were still games when I was rude, there were still games when I was super tilted due to losing streaks or real life stuff, but I am trying hard to be nicer to people even in those games, and I am much nicer when I am not tilted. I was a heavy flamer until 4 years ago so I already improved dramatically but I am glad that I can improve even more !!! For instance few days ago I had a huge losing streak and I queued only to get a Nami top who died lvl 1 so I immediately started going like "why me RITO" "wtf so many trolls today" which tilted Nami, but she kept playing and did really well in the end earning an S, I apologized after the game and now we are friends. Some people though don't take it lightly which actually makes me sad when I realize I went too far, for instance I got matched with a lvl 22 player a week ago who was on ADC so of course he fed and since the meta is what it is we lose hard even though the rest of the team was super good, again I was like "sorry but I will report you for inting" and "blame RITO that they matched you in this game instead of blaming me for reporting you" , and I got matched with him again next game which tilted me hard but he said that I really made the game hard for him and that he can't enjoy learning League because of people like me, he played a lot better and even though I apologized to him he refused to communicate with me... Anyways I hope that I can be a lot nicer, but then again I hope that RIOT doesn't give me the reason to go ape shit on people because I lost 10 in a row after winning 10 in a row, for people like me who aren't inherently offensive I think that RIOT often pushes us to the edge with bullshit balance and bullshit matchmaking, but we can always stay calm and try to be nice to one another or at least mute and ignore if the person is an actual dick.