How is one expected to reform?
The vast majority of any behavioral mistakes I make is due to giving up on the game, feeling the game is lost. 4 people die in less than 10 minutes. 0/4... feels like a lost game, especially when you are in a really bad lane yourself. How am i expected to feel better about myself and the game when if I voice any displeasure with the game, and express feeling it is lost, i am immediately yelled at and effectively verbally abused?
No I cant feel more positive about the situation, every lane is losing. Just because i said i feel the game is lost doesn't mean you need to call me toxic for 20 minutes and i shouldn't play the game. I literally feel like i cant express anything ever or people just abuse me. They will report me and because saying 'the game is over' is bannable i'll get punished, but they wont because 1 vote vs 4 people loses to 4 votes vs 1 person