I hate my life...

Rueian·8/23/2015, 1:38:49 PM·5 votes·2,296 views

I'm sick of feeling mad and sad. I'm sick of being guilt tripped for feeling these emotions I'm sick of being told i'm a bad person I'm sick of feeling helpless and useless I'm sick of every aspect of my life being shit I'm sick of never getting better regardless of the time and effort i put in I'm sick of being judged I'm sick of judging others I'm sick of having no place in life I'm sick of feeling i cant talk to people i know I'm sick of feeling like i cant talk to people i dont know I'm sick of being indecisive. I'm sick of not being in control I'm sick of feeling lost

Most of all I am sick of being me And this community, this unaccepting, hostile community, has made me sick of living.

I dont have the means nor do i want to have the means to follow through on these thoughts, but really... I wish i could die.

69 Comments

Ben Sharpio8/23/2015, 4:06:17 PM5 votes

I think your quality of life will improve if you upgrade your trinkets more.

Trash MammaI8/23/2015, 3:03:23 PM4 votes

Gonna sound a bit harsh here but whatever

If you are under the age of 18 in which case you're living under your parents you have 0 reason to be crying the way you are. Your life hasn't even started. UNLESS you have some really messed up parents or get bullied a lot in school etc. then you need to get help from the proper people
If you are 18 or older then you're just getting a taste of the real world. You're still crazy young and don't need to be whining when you could be going out and doing something to better yourself
Your comments sound like league related but if not and it pertains to IRL then you need to practice and get better at whatever it is you're sucking at. You can't just magically get good at something over the course of a few days/weeks sometimes it takes months years to do something great. Just keep trying
If this is League related, then I mean this in the least 'go kill yourself" manner, but man the hell up. It's a fucking game. People need to realize this game ISN'T your life. If your dream was to pursue a career in league then go on and practice and get help. If it's not then why the hell are you on the boards crying like you're the only one who has bad days with league? IT. IS. A. VIDEO. GAME.
I've told this to my younger sister, who if I say so myself has turned into a fine young teenager, if you EVER have a thought about your life needing to end over anything that isn't a life or death situation you might as well just do it and stop bringing others down with your crying.

If there's a boy/girl who you like but they don't like you back and you want to kill yourself over it. Just do it. If you aren't good at a video game and it's bringing you down that you want to die. Just do it. If you didn't get the job you wanted and it's making you think bad things. Just do it.

If you say

I wish i could die.

over something stupid just do it. No point in making dozens of other people worry or bring them down into your level of depression because you can't handle simple life problems.

I have no idea what made you want to make a thread like this but if it's something I touched on then just stop.

If it's something incredibly serious then ignore everything I said and you have my condolences and I hope it turns out ok

OperationDEEZ18/23/2015, 1:50:12 PM4 votes

I don't like taking chances, so I'm going to assume you're being serious here. Life's worth it. I know sometimes it feels like it isn't and it feels easier to just quit. But there's always something new on the horizon. Realize that when you rise above, and push through the pain, you'll become a better person. In terms of the game and it's community, you can just mute everyone at the start of the match.

BeatinWarDrumz8/23/2015, 5:18:43 PM3 votes

Tis is gonna be a short post Cuz I'm on iOS

I like others am going to assume that this is serious

First of all, if you are making this post, it seems like you are looking for an excuse not to. I can't say i know what it is because I am not in your shoes, but look for it. Friends, family... People are more willing to help than you think. If you are able to work through this hell, then find a job that doesnt require very much social ability. I was in a similar situation to you about a year ago, only I'm in school. I feel much better nowadays due to medication, which I dislike taking but helps me a lot. If you are not able to work, which I understand, see if you can get disability aid. As much as it might hurt at first, the world is a lonely place without friends or family to help. Find a meeting for people in similar situations. I hate being social, but friends ARE really important as a support network as well as a social outlet

Anyway, I hope thus helps. Friend me if you want to, and most of all rememner that you are still young and once you get out of this hole life will be so much better

Fini of Legend8/23/2015, 6:35:17 PM2 votes

Have you tried seeking professional help? Seeking help at all, like coming here for help, can be a very hard step to take.

Also, lack of sleep can not only be a symptom of depression but also a cause, lending further to itself.

Anyway, I'm not exactly sure what to say but someone once said that greater sadness also shows a greater capacity for happiness.

And the whole judging thingy and good or bad people is so frustrating.

Like, I know someone who is into conspiracy theories and hates people and told me they rejected Jesus but the people at church liked him. Or that person who was worried about my roommate being black and doesn't view black people so well but can how'do'ya'do with them without seeming 'fake'. Maybe I'm misunderstanding things, who knows? And then there is that person with psychosis and another with antisocial personality disorder.

Sometimes I see someone I judged laugh like a little kid with someone else. And sometimes I see people being good to the people they love even if they don't like me for reasons I think are bad. And then I saw in the news someone turned themselves in for murdering and raping a girl.

Well.. but I don't think wanting to be a good person is a bad thing.

The story usually goes that you find someone you love or some career with passion or God helps you to your feet, a mix, or some other things. You still have chances to give your life meaning. I'm not really sure if I said that right tho. On another note, do you write stuff? Like a journal or something? I heard it helps.

Anyway, I'll be praying for you, and I just did.

Azteryz8/23/2015, 3:27:06 PM2 votes

want proof that this community isnt all dark and bad? accept my friend request :)

AdoIf Hitler8/23/2015, 2:33:38 PM2 votes

Is there a way I can talk to you? Facebook, Email, anything. Hang in there man! summoner 31

Lugg8/23/2015, 4:08:28 PM2 votes

Words of wisdom to improve your life.

SEKAI8/25/2015, 5:52:08 AM1 votes

Every time you are mad at yourself, think that lot of people die literally every second, and most of them have never experienced what you take for granted.

Every time you see someone mad at themselves, tell them that there are no tunnels without a exit, there is no one who are destined to be alone forever and the sun only rises after the darkest and the coldest hour.

Simple.

Moriorty8/24/2015, 7:28:07 AM1 votes

There are many things you can do to improve your situation. I will not suggest anything specific because you know what you can do, I do not know you. I go through the same thought process of feeling sorry for myself everyday, but over time it has taken up less of my time.

Think about what you can do and use those abilities to better your life and the lives of others. About emotions, you are/control the emotion. It is about recognizing your expressions and moving forward. If you are crying when sad, then thinking about why you are sad will only make you cry more. This applies to when you smile as you feel joy, so that if you think about what made you feel joy, you will prolong the feeling; when you scrunch your eyebrows as you feel anger, and you think about what caused the anger, it will prolong it as well; etc.

When I would get angry, I would then become sad afterwards. I then learned how not to be sad. I let the anger linger in me to think about how stupid it was of me to be angry, or I let myself be angry, but I would not express it violently.

All that I see in your post is thought on what makes you feel despair. Eat, drink something; get some sleep. If you are stubborn about eating, drinking, or sleeping, all it will do is make you feel worse because your body is not just some tool, it is you. Once you get that straight, realize that life is an adventure and you decide what it will be like. If you sit wallowing in despair, then that is what you will have let your life be.

If the world was in ruin left with only me, I will smile at the future, and cry about what I have lost, as I realize what I am without the world, instead of what the world is without me. Become someone who can leave this world with a smile. summoner 31

Budupops8/23/2015, 3:25:05 PM1 votes

then quit the game and do us all a favor? it sounds like you are a toxic player.