Leagues has changed me.

breakordoom444·May 22, 2017·1 votes·331 views

So back then i was quite the longer, never talked to anyone at school, and i was actually suffering from depression and alot of peer pressure. one day my bro came up to me and told me to play this cancerous game called league of legends, 2 years into playing it, the game changed me alot, from a longer to the popular kid, from the silent to the loud and my depression is only mild(from the salt and toxicity in this game) but that dosent bother me alot, but now my personality is diffrent, i have a mild case of megalomania,shortest line(of anger) in the world. the point is, what can i do to change myself?, quitting league is not going to help me, ive tried, its quite useless, i tried other games, still didnt work.

11 Comments

Contagion87May 22, 20172 votes

Find a therapist if you do not have the self-discipline to be who you want to be as a human being on your own through perseverance and reflection. Part of growing up is figuring out what you want out of life. you are depressed, you are missing something in your life. You play games to fill a void. Games serve as distractions. You need to Live life. Make a goal in real life. Find out what is missing. Maybe it is love, maybe it is financial freedom. Maybe it is boredom or lack of nutrition and exercise. Life, just like any game, is trial and error. You will not find the answers anywhere. This answer I am giving you will be re-worded by someone else but the message is the same. Find meaning in your own life. Be sure it is YOUR meaning, not someone else's influence. Anyway, good luck. I am 29 and going through something similar but as you can tell from my attitude, I am working on it. Keep your head up~

breakordoom444May 22, 20171 votes

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Find a therapist if you do not have the self-discipline to be who you want to be as a human being on your own through perseverance and reflection. Part of growing up is figuring out what you want out of life. you are depressed, you are missing something in your life. You play games to fill a void. Games serve as distractions. You need to Live life. Make a goal in real life. Find out what is missing. Maybe it is love, maybe it is financial freedom. Maybe it is boredom or lack of nutrition and exercise. Life, just like any game, is trial and error. You will not find the answers anywhere. This answer I am giving you will be re-worded by someone else but the message is the same. Find meaning in your own life. Be sure it is YOUR meaning, not someone else's influence. Anyway, good luck. I am 29 and going through something similar but as you can tell from my attitude, I am working on it. Keep your head up~

i don't lack exercise or nutrition, I'am reletively more healthy then my family, and i can bench 120 pounds, but i don't know where to go next, love is not what i need, honestly even just being depressed was better for my current situation, i didn't think about much, nor cared about goals in my life, but being truely alive is much worse (in a way yes), saying find a life is so much harder then doing so.

SarchiaponMay 22, 20171 votes

All in all, being too much lively is way better than being depressed. I don't really think you got any problem.

breakordoom444May 22, 20171 votes

but being lively is bad for my current situation.

SarchiaponMay 22, 20171 votes

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but being lively is bad for my current situation.

Why?

breakordoom444May 22, 20171 votes

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Why?

I have to think, slowly i got a void in my heart and i used league and cs-go to try and fill it up, i have to find goal in life, or do something that will distract me for long enough.

SarchiaponMay 22, 20171 votes

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I have to think, slowly i got a void in my heart and i used league and cs-go to try and fill it up, i have to find goal in life, or do something that will distract me for long enough.

How old are you?

breakordoom444May 22, 20171 votes

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How old are you?

i like to keep my info private, but im 6 month away from turning 24

SarchiaponMay 22, 20171 votes

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i like to keep my info private, but im 6 month away from turning 24

Knowing your age won't do jack for me. However you are indeed at a time when you should BEGIN to know what to do with your life. You can still take it easy, but indeed the faster you make up your mind, the better.

barson bazookaMay 22, 20171 votes

I play games because I'm passionate about them, but I too have become a warped version of me due to a toxic competitive environment, I started out as the "report for toxic please" and nothing else, but now I'm one of them. I don't wanna be this :(

Contagion87May 22, 20171 votes

If you want to find motivation anywhere but within yourself, you are out of luck. Find inspiration, read books. Spend your time doing what makes you happy. If you want a different result, you need to do something different. Repeating your daily routine in life is not fulfilling. So do something different, you are bored with your life.