today i died alittle on the inside
i was playing support..
i put my wards out with my sight stone.. backed to refresh my sightstone.. .. my team kept skirmishing rather than do objectives.. i spent all my wards again because of a ongoing confusion... my wards ran out and i backed because of low mana and needing sightstone refreshed.. my team started pinging baron because the enemy walked up to it and was taking it .. we didnt have vision but we knew what they where doing.
what made me die a bit on the inside when a person who never upgraded their trinket ward told me we lost vision of baron because i never upgraded my sightstone...
i put down 36 wards that game and destroyed 11.. plus a pink that the enemy didnt touch for a really long time.. the person giving me advice to upgrade my sightstone put down 8 wards.. and destroyed 2...
i dont understand people.. i just dont...
i did my promos on my smurf... i didnt really consider it a smurf persay because it was the same tier as the main.. but wanted to see what i would get..
in a loss i went 3/4/3 i know i could have done better .. then i looked at the scores of my team mates at the end.. 3/6/3 - jgl 2/7/1 - mid 1/9/1 - adc 1/11/1 - top
i warded for this adc.. like literally the enemy jungler would stand on my wards .. so i backed off.. pinging him.. he just had to get that one more cs.. just that one more cs.. i died alittle on the inside after that game.. my plat smurf is now a silver ...
i had a placement game where i went 1/5/0 one death was a suicide because i knew i was caught out... i was 1/1/0 for a good amount of time till the mid lane LB decided to blow me up every chance she got... she would literally go all the way the pain started around the 22 min mark... it was sad.. the final score of the game was 1 - 21 i died alittle on the inside that game.
maybe it is just late and i need some sleep.. i just am at the point of questioning why this happened..
i know elo hell is just a mentality and its not real, but people are really giving a good case on why a person may want to believe.