I just don't know why

So I've always been good at competitive video games growing up from Fighting games to First/Third Person Shooters etc. So when I got into League of Legends I was instantly hooked by the nature of its competitive appeal. It is because of this same competitive drive that I've come to literally hate League at times... So when I made goals to get gold by the end of the season I felt like that shouldn't really be that hard, and aside from the amount of grinding involved, quite frankly it really isn't. I got to Silver 1... which to me is a rank non reflective of my personal skill, giving how much i smash at video games. and I just couldn't understand why I couldn't get to gold... thought maybe it's because I'm getting older (30 years old) and certain skills that i had when i was a youthful gamer have somewhat diminished (reaction speed, coordination etc... they are all perishable skills)... and really it just tilts me beyond anything... I literally get so upset at Ranked Games that it is probably considered unhealthy to most. and I get upset because a lot of the things that occur inn the games (NOT ALL OF IT) are beyond my control.... i don't go into a premade... I rarely even Queue up with a friend... I primarily just go into Ranked as a SoloQ Player.... and despite my dedication to the game, despite all my practice, I just couldn't Climb out of High Silver.

So then I figured I'd play a newer game to play for fun.. Overwatch... which itself has a very competitive scene... So when I started playing ranked... it took a little bit but my rank is the equivalent of a High Diamond... Achieving that rank was a little bit of a relief because it made me realize that I still do have those skills i had when i was younger...but then it made me rethink about League.... I seriously think that there definitely are improvements to be made in that ranking system... Sure i'm sure others have done it.. but we don't know all the variables that contributed to them achieving that rank so its hard for anyone to say definitively.... I don't claim to be as good as a pro player.. never have... but I always viewed myself as better then average in games.. So having a silver 1 rank really hit me hard negatively... either way... with riot bringing back SoloQ/DuoQ.... I may end up giving another go at reaching my Gold Rank for season 7.... I still love league... but ranking needs to be reflective of personal skill...AS WELL as actually winning the game.... not just one or the other...