How Toxic Was That?

RUMBLER J·2/18/2015, 4:16:56 PM·1 votes·896 views

All this 'toxic' talk seems to be taking its toll and I made a post about it. In case no one saw that, I thought to give this a shot;

Some time ago, one weekend, I started playing a few games, but when I get more and more game losses, I get more and more jealous and angry. My rage level kept going up and up and up, and on that point, I ended up being the most out-of-control, the most emotional, and absolutely the biggest rager ever known on my opinion. I screamed and cussed at my teammates many, many times during the game, after the game, even before the game. In fact, I almost became as enraged, angry, and mad as The Incredible Hulk. Maybe, even madder than the Incredible Hulk.

Some teammates told me to calm down, but I was too ticked off and too enraged to listen and cussed them back immediately once or twice. Some even mocked me from what I went through, and I really hated being mocked. I feel like I became the biggest rage-o-holic beast I have ever felt.

Do you know how many monsters, especially werewolves, get completely ticked off and tear up everything when they feel like it? I was 1000 times more enraged than that. I was like, in my opinion, the ultimate rage-o-holic werewolf. So, I gave up some of my games and got blamed and ridiculed because of it.

So, on a scale of 1 to 10, how toxic was that? And on that note, I was started to get a little psychotic. OK, a lot psychotic. But, I can't help it.

16 Comments

FHMarshy2/18/2015, 4:22:04 PM5 votes

u might wanna stop playing competitive games and go see a doctor

ModThe Djinn2/18/2015, 4:19:11 PM1 votes

That's...that's pretty toxic. Especially if that "cursing" took the form of racist/sexist/ablest remarks or direct personal attacks.

RUMBLER J2/18/2015, 5:58:07 PM1 votes

Emotional issues? It's just that I just can't stand losing a whole lot of times, and sometimes I want to win so bad, that I became completely desperate and keep losing more and more times, and that's why I became like such an angry beast. Is it wrong to take these games too seriously? Is it wrong to get so angry for no apparent reason, besides losing so much? It is wrong to be too competitive that you absolutely lost it in a fit of psychotic rage?

RUMBLER J2/18/2015, 6:38:20 PM1 votes

I just need to find the right mindset of what it takes to get to the top. But despite my 'crazy' behavior, I may never find it. What's the perfect mindset for me despite on what I felt as a completely psychotic beast, unleashed and with no restraints?

Eleshakai2/18/2015, 8:57:38 PM1 votes

Did anyone else read the title of this thread and think it was a new gameshow and get a mental image of contestants being presented with a scenario and the audience shouting "HOW TOXIC WAS THAT?"

MaybE I'm just tired...

Dangerous Man2/18/2015, 11:23:30 PM1 votes

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