How Toxic Was That?

RUMBLER J··1 votes·896 views

All this 'toxic' talk seems to be taking its toll and I made a post about it. In case no one saw that, I thought to give this a shot;

Some time ago, one weekend, I started playing a few games, but when I get more and more game losses, I get more and more jealous and angry. My rage level kept going up and up and up, and on that point, I ended up being the most out-of-control, the most emotional, and absolutely the biggest rager ever known on my opinion. I screamed and cussed at my teammates many, many times during the game, after the game, even before the game. In fact, I almost became as enraged, angry, and mad as The Incredible Hulk. Maybe, even madder than the Incredible Hulk.

Some teammates told me to calm down, but I was too ticked off and too enraged to listen and cussed them back immediately once or twice. Some even mocked me from what I went through, and I really hated being mocked. I feel like I became the biggest rage-o-holic beast I have ever felt.

Do you know how many monsters, especially werewolves, get completely ticked off and tear up everything when they feel like it? I was 1000 times more enraged than that. I was like, in my opinion, the ultimate rage-o-holic werewolf. So, I gave up some of my games and got blamed and ridiculed because of it.

So, on a scale of 1 to 10, how toxic was that? And on that note, I was started to get a little psychotic. OK, a lot psychotic. But, I can't help it.

16 Comments

FHMarshy5 votes

u might wanna stop playing competitive games and go see a doctor

RUMBLER J2 votes

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u might wanna stop playing competitive games and go see a doctor

A DOCTOR?! Was I that toxic, that out of control, that in a psychotic fit of anger all because I take these games too seriously?! IS THAT IT?! HUH?!

FHMarshy2 votes

Yes, I think u have emotional issues that is not directly related, but is fueled by the toxic environment this game possess.

CaptainTatertits1 votes

Emotional issues?

Anyway, everyone has to learn to deal with stress in their life. A lot of people "get it right" the first time and learn how to not let it bother them, and use those situations to make themselves better. Others happen to choose a less effective coping strategy. Just go to youtube and search for how to get out of elohell. You should find all the info you need to change our mindset.

FHMarshy1 votes

Just saying that cuz I read a post by this guy just yesterday where he typed in all Caps and raging/cussing/yelling(in a writing format), in which he claimed to be really depressed by the losing streaks but in reality after checking his match history, he is basically going +1 and -1 one after another.

So I came to the conclusion that he is either trolling or really has an anger management issue.

RUMBLER J1 votes

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Just saying that cuz I read a post by this guy just yesterday where he typed in all Caps and raging/cussing/yelling(in a writing format), in which he claimed to be really depressed by the losing streaks but in reality after checking his match history, he is basically going +1 and -1 one after another.

So I came to the conclusion that he is either trolling or really has an anger management issue.

That guy was me.

RUMBLER J1 votes

[{quoted}](name=Cpt Lemmiwinks,realm=NA,application-id=cIfEodbz,discussion-id=A05vvex2,comment-id=0001000000000000,timestamp=2015-02-18T20:12:43.700+0000)

Emotional issues?

Anyway, everyone has to learn to deal with stress in their life. A lot of people "get it right" the first time and learn how to not let it bother them, and use those situations to make themselves better. Others happen to choose a less effective coping strategy. Just go to youtube and search for how to get out of elohell. You should find all the info you need to change our mindset.

But I'm not there yet because I haven't played any ranked battles.

CaptainTatertits1 votes

I understand that, but the strategies they use are very much valid for your issue. I think you would gain a lot from watching them, as I did, whether or not you ever intend to play ranked.

RUMBLER J1 votes

[{quoted}](name=Cpt Lemmiwinks,realm=NA,application-id=cIfEodbz,discussion-id=A05vvex2,comment-id=000100000000000000010000,timestamp=2015-02-18T20:50:08.696+0000)

I understand that, but the strategies they use are very much valid for your issue. I think you would gain a lot from watching them, as I did, whether or not you ever intend to play ranked.

What strategies are there for my issue, and can any of them fix my psychotic feelings? I feel like a giant time bomb waiting to explode with an unstoppable force.

ModThe Djinn1 votes

That's...that's pretty toxic. Especially if that "cursing" took the form of racist/sexist/ablest remarks or direct personal attacks.

RUMBLER J1 votes

Emotional issues? It's just that I just can't stand losing a whole lot of times, and sometimes I want to win so bad, that I became completely desperate and keep losing more and more times, and that's why I became like such an angry beast. Is it wrong to take these games too seriously? Is it wrong to get so angry for no apparent reason, besides losing so much? It is wrong to be too competitive that you absolutely lost it in a fit of psychotic rage?

Jubbinaut3 votes

[{quoted}](name=RUMBLER J,realm=NA,application-id=cIfEodbz,discussion-id=A05vvex2,comment-id=0002,timestamp=2015-02-18T17:58:07.865+0000)

Is it wrong to take these games too seriously?

Short answer? Yes. Long answer? "Too seriously" is a difficult metric, because it's inherently subjective. A good rule of thumb, though, is that if games are affecting your ongoing emotional state, then you're probably too invested.

Is it wrong to get so angry for no apparent reason, besides losing so much?

Not necessarily. Anger is a pretty natural reaction to frustrating situations. However, the kind and extent of anger you describe is pretty excessive for a game. Thus the concerns about your general emotional state.

It is wrong to be too competitive that you absolutely lost it in a fit of psychotic rage?

Yes. "Psychotic" rage is basically always wrong, as it indicates action taken due to anger. Again, it's not unreasonable to state that if it's affecting you that much, it's worth your time to discover why. Which may be the reason Marshy suggested a doctor.

RUMBLER J1 votes

I just need to find the right mindset of what it takes to get to the top. But despite my 'crazy' behavior, I may never find it. What's the perfect mindset for me despite on what I felt as a completely psychotic beast, unleashed and with no restraints?

Eleshakai1 votes

Did anyone else read the title of this thread and think it was a new gameshow and get a mental image of contestants being presented with a scenario and the audience shouting "HOW TOXIC WAS THAT?"

MaybE I'm just tired...

Jubbinaut1 votes

I dunno, but I'd watch that.

Dangerous Man1 votes

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