Desperately Need Confidence builder
Sometimes I feel like I am the absolute worst player of League of all time. No matter what I try, no matter how I try, and no matter who I try, I'm always end up last. Even playing with bots, my team performs better than me. And when I'm this close of getting a kill, someone stole it from me. Why do I even try at all? I've got absolutely no skill at all.
I mean, what's the world coming to when I just can't seem to get better no matter what I try. I feel like the whole world is ending to me. I feel like I'm just nothing. Nothing at all. My confidence level is completely gone. I'll never be skillful enough to even get the 16 champs I need to play ranked. Most people are better skilled than me. In fact, everybody's better skilled than me point blank.
All these worries in my head, I'm certain that I am 100% neurotic. I desperately need a therapist, but not a doctor. It's more of a mental and psychological issue than a physical issue. I feel like that nothing good ever comes to me and they never will come good to me. No matter what, I'll always be... at the bottom. I'll never rise to the ranks. I'll never reach the top. I'll never get out of Bronze. I'll never have a good life. I'll never do anything worthwhile.
I'm such a failure. I'll never get out of my funk. No amount of practice, no amount of wisdom, no amount of therapy, no amount of meditation, not even music..., absolutely nothing will build my confidence up. I just can't do this anymore. I'm the absolute worst player ever. I... just can't do it.