League Saved My Life

HerbieVG·3/15/2017, 10:03:01 PM·111 votes·3,935 views

I don't post much on here, but I just wanted to share my story.

2016 was probably one of the worst years of my life. My mother spiraled into a horrible addiction to alcohol and my step father became severaly abusive to me mentally. I began to feel worthless and like an overall piece of shit, as if everything was my fault. My home became extremely unstable, and I would stay in my room for hours at a time because I was terrified to interact with my parents. Sometimes the entire day on weekends. When everything around me was falling apart, when I couldn't sleep because fights between my parents would last until four in the morning, League was there.

I began to slip up in school, my home environment became a huge distraction. I honestly became so emotionally detached from school and lost all motivation. I thought a lot about suicide but never attempted it. Things like thinking about the future, other family members, and even League kept me from going that far.

To me League was an escape, it became my new home. My true home was broken, in shambles. But none of that mattered because League didn't judge me, it welcomed me with open arms.

I'm doing much better now. I moved in with my dad and he's been very supportive. I go to a new school that I actually enjoy a lot. I still play League, just not as much as I did.

I guess part of the reasoning behind posting this now is because I know a lot of people have been complaining about the overall balance state and how broken things seem right now. So I kind of wanted to remind everyone that despite everything going on, it truly is an amazing game and Riot provided a home for all of us.

46 Comments

Evêñtfûl Hôrïzôñ3/15/2017, 10:30:43 PM41 votes

Aww, I'm glad you found a true home here in Runeterra! You'll always be welcome. ^,^ ######Oh, and if people are being toxic in-game, mute them, they don't deserve to be in Runeterra, they can move back to Earth.

Valeckserai3/15/2017, 11:14:38 PM12 votes

Wasn't expecting the Leage of Feels.

Glad that things are looking up for you man, God bless and keep going on.

Aeszarck3/16/2017, 1:01:38 AM6 votes

It's wonderful to read this. I'm so happy that you feel that way about League of Legends.

I wish toxic members of the community realized how important League of Legends is for some people. When Runeterra is their favorite place to be and their best/only escape from the real world, it can feel so crappy to have that experience ruined by toxic players.

rtbf2256182413/16/2017, 1:36:47 PM3 votes

To be fair 2016 was a bad year for almost everyone. So we can relate. I know i can.

Lady Hammerlock3/16/2017, 2:24:30 PM3 votes

Kind of the same situation for me 2015-2016, i decided to change up schools thinking it'd be fun OH BOY WAS I WRONG i had some good friends, but i was bullied for acting feminine as a guy and unable to speak my mother tongue in a proper accent. My parents when first approached them, were hopeless, they'd pick the bullies side and say 'your a boy blah blah blah' and 'then learn to speak your language' i stopped trying to talk to them. My old friends didn't play with me as much, so i usually played league alone, a safe haven if you will. It was comfortable going home from school, ignoring my very judging parents, just spending the day in studying,studying and League. Even then, contemplating suicide, lost motivation in school, same as you. now my school year 2016-2017, i switched back to my old school, missing some from the new school i tried. Yet, i have other games as a safe haven, to me my room is a safe haven(call me a shut-in but i am not). My parents are still judging, my conversations are usually fake, i hate family events because i have to watch out for everything i do, and worst of all, some of the depression carried on, even if i don't show it.

EDIT: Oh yeah, now i also have minor anxiety, slightly agoraphobic, panic attacks that come out of the blue or a trigger(due to something that i consider traumatising during the 2015-2016 year), and always have trouble when deciding whether or not to go with my friends to movies(like second thoughts)

Leo10243/16/2017, 2:24:31 AM3 votes

Thank you for this post, it's nice to know that i'm not the only one. League is genuinely the only thing I enjoy doing as my life is nothing but yelling adults and loneliness, I only ever smile when i'm playing or watching the game. League really is something magical and i'm so greatful to have something to enjoy in my life, unfortunately my struggle continues and even if I can't play often it's still the only thing I enjoy and i'll forever be thankful to Riot for giving me that

KoKoboto3/16/2017, 1:28:23 AM2 votes

Ayy feelsgoodman!

LlamaSpeed3/16/2017, 2:22:18 AM2 votes

It is a surprise that you found sanctuary in this toxic hell whole called league of legends. With that said though, I couldn't be happier for you <3. Keep on keepin on.

Kudrov3/16/2017, 3:39:51 PM2 votes

so yeah i have problems, well lets not face them and escape reality, nice nice "saved my life" LUL.

legionnaire993/16/2017, 2:52:26 AM2 votes

damn I nearly cried reading this good to see your getting better

Sp33d Zer03/16/2017, 5:03:28 PM2 votes

Glad to hear you're better, but I find it ironic that in a game where people regularly tell others to kill themselves, you found solace and peace.

Ørdeal3/16/2017, 3:29:22 AM2 votes

Stop letting people get to you. Be a man and make yourself better instead of using this game as an escape.

Corvo Attano3/15/2017, 11:14:39 PM2 votes

I thought about making a negative comment

But i honestly can't think of one, can i get some help?

KoggyStyle3/16/2017, 7:26:13 PM2 votes

Ey, good job bro.... i was like that back in the 90s games/other family kept me going, Just remember you got a life ahead of you and once your out of your parents home you are the one that decides how to live it.

Best of luck*[slayer-pantheon-thumbs]*

Scammed3/17/2017, 12:38:11 AM1 votes

League used to welcome me with warm arms until I realized riot doesn't treat their players equally :^) TB when I got called a N*gga

Skins Project3/16/2017, 3:09:39 AM1 votes

._.

I was going to post a Simpsons GIF (Where Homer get's saved by rage)

But.... item 3073 item 3151 item 3073

unreformed af3/16/2017, 5:54:37 AM1 votes

must be nice to live in your new cancer-ridden home.

Squeaky Dreemurr3/16/2017, 6:43:41 AM1 votes

You are supported, my friend. No matter what trials you face. <3

Solidarius3/16/2017, 7:08:05 AM1 votes

We all been there, Im happy things are getting better for you :D

Theres a old saying my father and brother always tell me when im down...

so today I say to you my friend!

"keep your head up"!

[slayer-jinx-wink]

Yi Bencheikh3/16/2017, 7:30:32 AM1 votes

glad to read something like this tho , people who flame riot games have no idea how hard it is to make a game that would be as popular as wow or league or GTA .. etc Devs spend 5/6 their day on programming drawing designing thinking of abilities dialogues and story writing ... etc and then comes a guy who only plays for free and complains about shit behind the screen i tried to make a small game with my freind and i know how time taking it is

Durfain3/16/2017, 1:29:09 PM1 votes

Wow u sound like a horrible person. Your mum needed emotional support and you just played League all day instead of helping her. Hope u feel proud.

NastyMcOutplay3/16/2017, 4:36:12 PM1 votes

Hahahahhaahaahhaha

Oelyk3/16/2017, 5:00:55 PM1 votes

I am proud of you, I still await the day I don't need league to drown my pain, when I no longer feel the urge to escape into a world that I feel more proficient at than real life.

Thank you for sharing and be open.

Sraeg20133/16/2017, 5:10:37 PM1 votes

If League of Legends was better than your own home, then your home must've been a true hell.

Lux Is Mai Waifu3/16/2017, 6:09:48 PM1 votes

League is a trash game bro, Riot can't be given any credit for you being easily entertained.

BabeisBae3/16/2017, 7:08:19 PM1 votes

Just because the game is free to play and provides entertainment doesn't mean it is good :P

HentaiHeadass3/16/2017, 8:52:18 PM1 votes

League saved your life but, it ruined mine. kappa