what can i do (very fulguar and my true feelings)

so today I decide to play some league and not 1 not 2 not 3 not 4 but 5 fucking games 5 im winning lane in a bad matchup most of the time as kassadin more cs kills levels and then my team turns to bannas for the enemy team who are silver back gorillas to constanly eat up holy shit is it annoying their actually dumb as shit what can I say its ridiculous what can I do so I decide k not kass weak early lemme try and stomp lane I do that nope team turns into fucktards jesus im tilted how is it possible for it to be me kassadin to have all 4 kills in the first 10 mins all solo btw and the enemy to have 11 I cant carry early not enough mana or ap. what tf can a man do and live through if god forbids I ever int my team wins we lose but if I win hard my team loses hard we lose its impossible for me to get out of this nightmare called silver jesus how does one desrve this and its not one person that does bad its the whole fucking team jg top supp adc. this jinx had the audacity when it was 5v1 all ded I was 4-0 she was 0-11 I try to do my best to stop them I got slaughtered and she said nice best mid ever trash kass I look at her and was ready to drop and RKO really quick through the screen. now I think I vented all my frustration