Is avoiding ranked play the worst thing I can be doing for myself?
So I started playing early-ish during season 3, mainly more as a way of having something to talk about with my friends when I found out that several of them were into League. I'm part of the RP community on Facebook, and so there are very few ways to have bonding experiences outside of writing or chat messages. I was never too big on RTS games, but they managed to sell me on League so I installed it, made my account, and got to business.
No one needs to be told how awful the climb to 30 was. Once I hit around 18 or so I had picked up a second job, and between that and feeling like I wasn't progressing in my skills anyways I stopped playing for quite some time. Came back near the end of Season 3, broke level 20 and started feeling like I understood what was going on. Finished getting to 30 earlier this year, and decided to hold off on ranked play. I wasn't sure if I was really good and ready for it, I felt like I needed more rune pages, and I needed to deepen my champion pools.
Over time I got recruited, by those same friends who got me into League, for a team. The team that's currently got me labeled as a Bronze V player from a cursory glance. At first I was a sub top laner, but when they needed a jungler I committed myself to learning the role and found my calling. This gave me a whole new pool of champions to try and learn, and so I put off trying to do ranked play again.
Eventually I hit the point months ago where I felt confident. I had a few champs that I could usually do consistently well with, and a few that I knew I could probably use some work on but with solid teammates could still pull off some great plays. My then girlfriend was a gold player, and her entire family were diamonds and platinums, and they all spoke pretty highly of my skills as a player, even if they pointed out things that I did that were painfully "silver, gold at best." Honestly more than I was expecting.
I had heard about the stress that ranked play can give. How rigidly people stick to the meta, and how one mistake can ruin an entire match. I had seen firsthand how awful the community can be to players just based on their rank, and even now I still have people who try to say my opinion on a subject isn't valid on the boards because I'm listed as Bronze V from the team I joined. I even listened to my ex have a breakdown over skype when her family constantly grilling her for only being a gold when they were all diamonds or platinums pushed her a bit too far.
I was a bit worried about trying to handle ranked while at a rough time in my own life, and put it off for as long as I could. But then I caved and decided that it was time to try my hand at it. I dove into ranked... and it didn't end well. Lag ripped me to shreds on the only match I managed to do well personally, ruining my wonderful performance with Shyvana in the middle of a teamfights pretty consistently. Another match was plagued with afkers. The other two were just... awful. Just plain bad.
To give some reference, in one of the two matches, wherein I was playing as Nocturne (probably my strongest main) I have a Cho'Gath top. Not a bad choice, the enemy was a caster so he was able to have an alright laning phase. But before long he starts giving up kills, and I notice that the guy's building pure AP. Hasn't touched a tank stat outside of a Rod of Ages. Said Cho'Gath would also Feast objectives and allchat about how shitty I was for missing Smite, and turned himself into a buff delivery system for the enemy team.
And that was the match that almost went well by comparison.
After those four provisionals I just dropped the idea of ranked completely. Between most of my friends complaining about how they were somehow being lumped with Bronze players when most of them are silver or gold, a few diamonds, and how disheartened I felt at my own inability to either carry on my own or to get my team to communicate well enough to turn tides no matter how much I tried, I gave up on finishing my provisionals. I was terrified that I might end up being stuck in Bronze no matter how well I did personally, because no one seemed to know whether your personal score or the amount of wins you got weighed in more.
If I didn't have the greatest KDA but managed to grab turret after turret by splitpushing, would I still look like a bad player by the numbers?
If I went 22/4/19 with 9001 CS but lost the match because I couldn't get my team to follow up on anything or group up, would my MMR drop as a result?
Ever since then I've been avoiding ranked play, but more and more it seems like being unranked is hurting me more than it's helping. I've taken to trying to learn new champions to fill in my time, but with work and trying to get back into college I never have more than a few games' worth of time in my offtime, and on days I work I usually don't want to play League before, as it could sour my mood before the day has started, and most days I don't feel like playing afterwards.
I'm not a fan of being measured as a person within the bounds of the community based on a colored emblem on my profile, but that seems to be the only way to get people to even listen to what you say, if they can keep themselves from condescending. Being unranked has been my shield against people who try to measure me as a player based on KDAs or rank, because it leaves it up to a more ambiguous sense because there's no certainty of how I am on an individual level, but more and more it seems like an excuse.
You all know how bad the community can be out there. I don't have to go into great detail about the AFKers or the DCs, about feeding teammates or thrown teamfights. What I'm wondering is if committing to ranked play, just to see where I land and where I can climb to, can pull me out of the hole I seem to have fallen into of terrible teammates? At this point I don't even play solo queue if I can avoid it because it seems like I can't trust any teammates outside of the one in a million gem of humanity who actually communicates during a match and has situational awareness beyond half of their vision range. If I finish my provisionals and end up as a silver, or Shenron be praised, a gold player, will I be able to start playing with people that will allow me to enjoy the game a bit more, not having to be worried about the skill levels, or lack thereof, of the people I go into a match with?
I want to enjoy this game again, especially with fun champions like Gnar and Rek'Sai releasing, champions I enjoy playing just for what they are even if I'm doing less than stellar, and I still have champions like Shyvana, Nocturne, or Rammus that I fall back on if I just need to take a few shots, not care about my score, and play Sonic X's theme as loud as I can while Qing into teamfights. But it's harder and harder to feel compelled to play given the people I seem to get matched up with when I do.
Am I only finding these sorts of people because I haven't ever wanted to deal with rank, so League's matchmaking is putting me in with the bottom of the barrel? Will climbing up a rank or two help me to play with people who aren't completely oblivious?