Confession of a toxic player

Am i Toxic yes i am, how many accounts do i have perm banned atm 3, do i care? no not really lol, am i good at the game? i guess if you consider the permmed accounts in plat 1 almost diamond elo, so no i dont deal with the trolls of bronze and silver, i do however deal with the toxic trolls and boosted idiots of plat/diamond. while pushing my way to diamond i run into constant boosted people who frankly do not belong here at all they are always duo with someone who is at my elos skill level but they are not. i constantly get frustated over this and i play alot of games per day so i see it often it, my chat logs reveal me constantly being salty when matched with these people or agaisnt these people or also when i have duos in my games or when i have an afk. i am toxic and this cant be changed i get suspensions over calling these boosted people trash or when im in a 4 vs 5 complaining in all chat telling the enemy team to stop dicking around an push the fucking mid lane so i can get out of the match already. no1 likes to lose for any reason, when you enter a game of league in high rating you expect the people you matched with you to be if anything close to your skill level unless they was boosted or won enough games with boosted/smurfs to end up where you are at. i really liked the constant chat restrictions i got because having them inside of a bad game really help me control myself enough to not be banned, now that the system goes 10 chat 14 day perm there really isnt enough warning before you are perm banned for having enough bad games that you snap in them and end up perm banned even if you are not openly toxic or trolling your team. you do the best you can but after enough of these bull shit losses you just snap and lose all control. riot is not doing anything about the afkers or trolls that spark the rage that will get you perm banned. so we basically just have to deal with it and try to not retaliate to these people.

tdlr: i am toxic over salty losses like being matched with boosted people,duos,4 vs 5 i have multiple perm banned accounts and play alot of games per day, riot does not reward postive behavior as much as they punish negative. all the friendly or teamwork or honors i get from my 1000s of good games dont mean shit when i get a 14day to perm ban off my 2-3 bad games. there needs to be a line of reward for being nice vs punishment for being so called toxic. i dont find calling someone out toxic i find running down mid lane going 0-25 toxic it ruins the game for 9 people other than a few bad words. out of every game i ever played league has the biggest whiney baby player base ready to report you for anything that is said to them.