Anyone feel like helping?

I Raged so bad today from 5 days of consecutive flaming and bad games... I know question my own prowess. I have s ranks on: . Yet... i have had 5 days with maybe 1 quick game that was any good. I have had to against the same champs and have been flamed by both ally and enemy day after day. I now hate these champs with a good passion. . I will only mention that today I was forced into the suicide prevention hotline because of how I acted in response to this amount of hate. The purpose being so that you understand that I'm not trying to be just cynical and cry. I uninstalled because I'm honestly not having fun anymore. It actually hurts now to log on and only play against 1 of these champs and lose game after game because I have failed to follow guidelines on surviving their encounters. I'm asking for help finding fun in this game anymore. Without being forced into "Meta Champions" the pros and Plat. use. I am also an unranked bronzie skum who hates ranked games XD