Can someone explain something to me?
What am I playing league for?
I've heard answers that vary from "showing off your skills" to "participate in a team oriented game".
I just don't feel like that's something for me, so forgive me if I sound off. I've come from games with clear scripters, rotten bad mouth teammates, the wonderful encouraging 'ggez' spam and through all of it, what's supposed to be fun?
I assume I'm just here to abuse my enemy lanemate and make sure I never once fight my friends because it's the WORST feeling to be on a losing side. I am not high elo, I don't want to climb, I don't care who's what I honestly want to play the champions I like, to see them move and play gracefully, show off the soul of the artists who spend SO much time trying to make the champion someone special. Something unique. I also love how riot makes references to everything else, like sly cooper or Guren Lagaan.
The game doesn't feel fun to watch, many of the plays you see in high elo you see in low elo, just not perfected with amazing precision. I keep referring back to a match with a jungle J4 camping and repeatedly diving a Varus botlane to keep them from really being in the game. I don't find that entertaining, it doesn't look fun, but that was a BIG HIGHLIGHT. It was repeatedly painted out and yelled over how j4 just stomped and tracked and made sure this varus' life was a literal nightmare to the point I think they would have dc'd if it wasn't an official match.
So if that's how it's played in high elo, and so much hype is placed there and weight and attention, if high elo is what we ALL strive for, why am I playing? I liked playing Gnar when he was supposedly bad, played Kindred after their nerf, got into Vlad before buffs too. (A talent for the BEST selections.) I like playing for the joy of playing and seeing the champs do whatever, I personally don't like playing, 'Like the pros', and I'm sick of trying to look at the builds to try and see what I have to consider a threat at all times because it's easiest and most meta thing to do.
I don't have time to do everything asked of me, I'm tired of getting 1 shot, flamed, talked down to, told nasty things that make me want to dc. I'm tired of being taunted, of watching people clearly scripting, or people who are clearly smurfs tired of their own tier backlash.
How do you have fun with this game? How am I supposed to? I like a good puzzle or number crunching, I like math as weird as that sounds, and I don't even mind fast pace. I don't like this, I don't like the one-sided nature and the expectation for perfection at all times.
Why am I playing league?