this is actually so stupid

So, in my progress trying to escape bronze (which will never happen), i realized that in higher bronze tiers, almost of players are jerks, and Aholes who should never play the game, as in lowers tiers, players are more friendly, and they troll less!!, in b2 as where i am now, there is a troller, afk, or int. feeding player in every match, i am not even joking, once, a kid got killed once, he rage quit, nice, and we lost 4vs5, in many matches, the enemy team tells me that i can't carry solo, and i will never be able to, i am the reason for losing when i go push, when i get objectives while they are feeding and flaming, i am the reason for losing because i couldn't gank at lvl3 with poppy, lmao, at the end, i am, who was called a feeder, the only one with positive KDA, turrets destroyed,.. i just keep laughing at myself, why do i keep playing this game, i am making no process..i am tired af