Gold logic? Please tell me how I'm the mentally retarded renekton in this game?

top: renekton vs malz with ghost flash and a camping kindred mid: afk farming orianna who never mia in time vs roaming solid taliyah jungle: solid lee sin vs kindred bot: xayah and rakan vs jinx and janna

I should be getting bullied due to range, movement advantage, and constant jungle pressure by the enemy kindred malz combo, but I actually have lane control, am winning, and pulling tons of pressure. Around lvl 7 - my bot lane gets 3v3'd and is losing to taliyah gank despite kindred and malz being top to stall me. I tp behind them, gift them free kill on janna, tower dive to secure them 2 more kills at cost of my life, and give them early tower. I get 0 thanks. Ori still afk autoing tower mid. I finally get 1 gank about 18 min into game, we get kill, tower, and rift herald. Ori afk farming mid while taliyah continues to keep up in cs and pressure bot a ton. No thanks from team. I let ori clear top after she bases since she's closer, so we can use herald mid to get tower. No thanks from team. Ori has giant wave shoving enemy top tower, but they have 3 low hp people mid. She can rotate, save mid tower with me, and get 2 easy kills. She doesn't rotate, I save mid at cost of my life - burning a tp and tayilah ult plus an enemy carry's flash. Ori doesn't kill tower top. I'm a mentally retarded renekton. And I'm toxic for telling ori she should have rotated mid. I just respawned, take red because no one on team has taken it in over 1.5 min, and they are all shoving enemy tier 2 mid. I have no tp because I used it to secure us objective earlier. I get flamed for taking red. Team is all below 50%hp and enemy is waveclearing mid and protecting tower. They all full hp with fresh items from shop. They catch out my team while I'm still by our tier 2 tower. I am a mentally retarded toxic renekton because I didn't "rotate" to save my team - yeah let me get 80% of way across the map in 2 sec before you all get deleted; when I don't have tp. Clearly I'm toxic for nicely telling ori she should have rotated early (and not spam typing it) while I do the "same thing" to team just then. Except ori could have rotated in 4 sec and it would have been a good play while I had no option to rotate in time and team knew it. Yes clearly I'm a toxic retard. Then I set up split-push - pulling 3 people top and still pressuring enemy inhib tower with no vision help or anything from team. Team is 4 man bot and gets 4v2 pressure to kill inhib tower and inhib bot. I'm a retarded toxic renekton for not grouping bot with them. Team gets 2 kills while I escape multiple 3v1 engage attempts top. I'm a retard. I kill top tower while getting attacked by a fairly strong kindred and give low hp teammates the space they need to escape from respawning low hp enemies. I secure vision control around baron after team ignores chance to leave - losing 2 people for no reason. I 1v3 contest enemy blue to stall for time while team respawns and heals so enemy can't get baron 5v2. I'm a retarded toxic renekton. I tp being enemy team - into a blind 1v4 to ensure team can follow up on a potential pick onto enemy adc - team gets the kill and I help them secure 1 more while blowing enemy sums. We push in and win game off that pick and tp play. I'm a toxic retarded renekton. Can someone please explain how I'm mentally retarded and toxic in this match? I never flamed. I never spam pinged. I never sat there gloating and typing arrogant stuff all game. I used my split push for the good of the TEAM - securing them advantages elsewhere without feeding while being outnumbered. When grouped, I engaged and tanked for my team - setting them up for easy kills and sacrificing myself to keep them at max hp and dps. I am confused how I this is mentally retarded and toxic play.