I'll say one last thing if it makes you happy (or not you, & me could both care less at this point i'm sure)
The difference between you, & me is that I'm this exact way in real life. I'm as nice as I can be, & I try to break away from it. You stated you think I'm a joke in real life? Not that I'd expect you to pity me, nor do I need it, but I've been kicked out, homeless, struggling with school ever since I was raised being a military brat like anyone else, & more alone than ever when it comes to having a family. I can indeed physically fend for myself, but use words to get people to understand me better.
I once went to a school in maryland for delinquents who got kicked out of regular schools (Only because one of my core classes which was graphics design was taught there & the schools would bus them there for that, or other classes) and ended up making friends with the majority of the people in my class, including a kid I got into it with. I make friends with just about everybody, & so far, it's been kicking me in the ass. When I play league, it feels slightly the same, except players feel as though they are safe from one another behind a monitor. I treat every friend I make in real-life as if they were family, because they are the closest thing to one.
Even in League, friends i've had in my list for a lengthy period of time get their original names put down in the notes section to the right of it so I don't forget who they were when I met them. I have had matches where it seemed like everyone was against me, but it's not as bad as family being against you. Even then I take in what is said, & ponder what could be done better, & try, & better myself, or a situation. I can be just as bad as I can be good. I've used words to make people feel like total trash in real-life as they were getting ready to fight me, but that's no way to handle a situation.
We are all human, and even you deserve to be treated with respect. If in real life I must defend myself, someone who knows me may be shocked at who I could be. It doesn't hide, I just prefer to think about why I would take certain actions over others. I know what it's like to feel like shit, & I know what it's like to feel upset with everyone. It's how you handle it that makes a difference. You've never walked in my shoes, as I've never walked in yours, & I can't say your life is, or isn't harder.
you're you, & if I met you in real-life without knowing you were TheBlainer, you'd probably grow pretty close to me like most of my friends. I'm sorry you were banned, but understand that not everyone can handle things the way you do. You handled a problem one way, whereas I handle it another. I'm not perfect, I make mistakes, & I want to do something about the toxicity that you feel is a necessity in order to handle situations.