not because of losing but being so disappointed in my performance, being fucking slow, not being able to think in the heat of the moment, not reacting quickly in team fights.
Im so angry at myself I need a punching bag, I feel like crying.
Try looking up ways to improve upon each weak point. You've got the internet at your disposal, you're far from helpless if you have the will to look.
No need to get angry at yourself, I'm sure you'll improve. You've already got a head start on a lot of people who instantly blame their teammates, since you're focused on your own performance.
