whats wrong with me...

I keep reading about how bronze and silver players just are clueless, and they say the things they do wrong... I don't do any of that shit wrong.... but I keep losing. They say don't blame your team. I'm 5-2 and the rest of my team is 0-10.... The few times I do bad, it turns out im against a smurf, or against someone who has killed their lane opponent 5 times in the first 10 minutes...

I've been playing this game for 5 years, and now im frustrated.... I cant seem to carry unless my team didn't feed. I just think to myself, if they just farmed and didn't die we would win... I've tried switching it up, and finding another champ to learn and main, but the playstyle is just so not what I'm good at... I've been just shooting for gold for 3 years now. I hit silver for the first time 3 years ago. I do provisionals and hit low bronze every year... it takes me about 2 months to get to silver, and then 2 months to get to silver 1. and then in the last month, I fall back to silver 4 or 5... This pattern has happened 3 years in a row.. There is no way that I have not improved at all...

I think back to last year. I never pinged, ever. My warding skills were literally shit. I was ok at farming, but now I actually farm ok (100 farm in the first 10 minutes is usually my standard). I was just meh at skill shots, and averaged the same number of deaths as kills. Today, I tend to not die a whole lot, and get a ton of assists and some kills. I've done games where I've had the most kills and assists. I am all over the map. I always have the most farm on either team... Its just so hard when your opponents have 10 kills on you, because of your team...