I had fun in ranked for the first time in a loooong time

http://matchhistory.na.leagueoflegends.com/en/#match-details/NA1/1763287604/212949202?tab=overview

We had a Darius start longsword pot against a Gnar, so I said thats pretty ballsy, and we banter a bit and he made a joke about Sword of the Occult rush. I didnt paid any attention to it. He got first blood on Gnar, and i congratulated him on his ballsy start paying off. Next i ganked his lane. Unknown to me there was a Rengar who snuck in the the bush before and jumped out mid fight. I was thinking of backing off when I see Darius keeps fighting to I went a long with it and got a double kill with a silver of health. All well and good we both b and refill our stuff. And then in the middle of me killing jg camp i see the notification that Darius had purchased Sword of the Occult.

Bastard actually did it. This is ranked so I was ready for rain hellfire on him for that purchase while hes not even that ahead, putting at risk everything and not playing the game seriously, asking "ARE YOU SERIOUS" to which he responded "I'm completely serious". Right then, for some reason I had this feeling within me, that same feeling of recklessness and balls-to-the-wall fun I once had when I first started this game, the kind of no brake death-or-glory that got me gamming in the first place. I haven't felt like this in a year or so, instead resulting to a very tryhard mindset, meticulously evaluating each descision and what it meant and how to optimize and what is safe for the sake of winning, not of having fun. So for the first time in around a year, I went with it, I didn't held back all these precaution that made ranked a stressfull and mentally tiring exercise for me. I joined with the Darius "balls to the wall eh? I like that, gonna camp top until you get those stacks". And I had fun, I had fun camping the ever living shit out of top lane, I had fun charging blind straight down river to slam into the Gnar and deliver him into Darius hand, I had fun ulting into the enemy team without a second thought, even if it meant Id explode in a shower of blood and glory. In the end, although he lost all his 20 stacks and sold it to get another item, the lead Darius created was enough to win us the game. And in the ending screen, I felt sastified, energized, a 'WE FUCKING DID IT" feeling instead of the usual "One step up the ladder" empty feeling, and it felt god damn amazing.

TL:DR Darius rush Occult in ranked, went with it, rediscover the joy of gamming