Yeah I am trash, I lose games, But its the communities handiwork.
Yep, I have actually been doing some thinking. And I am sure if you look at my kda and such...I do horrible, I do complete and Utter trash. I mean I really fkin suck. But the funny thing is. It is the League community that made me this way.
This community seems to have alot of arrogance, that pompous "better than thou" attitude. And with this game, no matter what you do, players will Rip on you for -every. Little. Mistake- I was in mid as yasuo. and I got 3v1'ed by Kayle, Top-lane's voli, and Evelyn. I tried to throw everything but got stomped. I Pinged, I asked for help, Nothing. Top lane Never called MIA. But he was more than happy to remind us about how HE had half the teams kills, but reported me for 'assisting enemy team" for dying to a 3v1.
My point is this. I know I do bad. But instead of a community that helps advise new players on how to improve. They will shine a spotlight on any mistake, no matter how minor. and Turn it into something huge, Picking and gnawing away at it. And its not just that one match. This community will take ONE bad game, and turn it into full on tilt. How? You will meet up with these toxic players in multiple other games, and the one thing I see, is they will happily remind you about that ONE bad game you had a week ago, and make sure everyone knows Just how much of an intentional feeder you are (say you got snowballed and had an afk , doesnt matter. they will still label you a feeder)
What does this do? It makes your current team value you even less, and they are less inclined to help you. This also sets in the mindset that Any mistake you make in THIS game will validate the accusation. (Go 0/1? "See, see! I told you he would be a feeder, here he goes) That causes the rest of the team to stir up even more resentment. and the cycle begins anew. I have tried to make these points, tried to help address things. But hey, I am apparently a horrible feeder. So that makes any point I try to make invalid. (Ad Hominum Fallacy?. I have a bad KDA, so anything I say is automatically wrong by default)
So yeah. I have a bad KDA. But thats what happens when Every 5 seconds I am reminded just how much I suck, Just how pathetic I am. How I missed a few last-hit minions so obviously I am complete garbage. I dont intentionally feed, But I have noticed that the FEW (very few) games where I Have been positive have been when someone hasnt reminded me of just how garbage I was, how I as a sorry pathetic noob that needs to uninstall. The rest of my games usually have someone taking a single death and labelling me a feeder, rubs my nose in that death the whole game, then proceeds to tell any future teams I we happen to be in together about how much of an intentional feeder I am. How I am a massive troll.. all of which started off of One little mistake, and snowballed Into my current kda.
TL:DR. Some feeders are intentional. I Am NOT an intentional feeder. But The community has told me how garbage I am so often, I am starting to accept it. Wonder when someone will stop the cycle and start advising players on how to improve, rather than just telling them how trash they are. Because when YOU played league, I bet you were a challenger pro right off the bat. I am what this community made me. A curse. Go toxic, YOU WILL LOSE. Not my fault you chose to flame and stress everyone (including me) out over a small mistake (one death? missed a skillshot? accidentally went in when didnt mean to?). A lost match is your reward.
I am a curse, I will embrace it to help improve this community. I dont care about my own KDA. I try my hardest to win. Toxics, snobs, and flamers will not win.