I am done.... making posts.
there is nothing I can do to get even. I can't win 35 games just to get even. I can win 6 and lose 3 and be right in the same spot. So, it hopeless. I just quit. There is nothing left for me to do. And one thing I want to make clear. Me being passionate whether it's toxic or not, actually gave me passion to play better. That's way I get pumped. And believing I am the best is way I approach everything. I can't tell myself I am the worst. I can't allow myself to think that. That's the way I approach everything. So that's it. I will just continue to lose, until I win. But by that point it won't matter anymore. Nothing matters.