I realized why I suck at this game...
So I'm trying to get better at league (everyone seems to be), and I just can't seem to...I watch videos, read up, but I seem to not be making any progress. When I get into a game, everything seems to go out the window. I try and try to get better, and I feel like I have improved slightly, but I always seem to lose lane more often than I win. I can't really CS without using abilities, I can't zone very well because I get too scared of the enemy, I look at the map but I don't READ it. I used to flame and get frustrated a lot but now I know I suck and I probably won't get any better.
Then there are days when I wonder why I even care. This game isn't helping me as a person, it's not paying my bills or giving me money. I play this game to have fun, and having to learn how to get good at a game takes the fun out of it because then it feels like a chore, ya know?
So there you have it, I realized why I suck at this game, and I admit, while I do want to be better, when I really think about it, I don't.