I'm terrible for some reason
Here me out please, it may be whiny but I will try to keep that out.
I can play normals in SR and have an easy win rate going that is not so dumpster bad it looks like a lose streak. (either trading wins or having win streaks) From there, I spam ARAM to practice team fighting (going to practice laning in a few normals as well, get the feel back). Eventually, I hit level 30 (yay). Did my ranked matches for it to pick where I went, ended up Silver 3. I won 4 and lost 6. My first thought was "wow, thats so high ^^" then my second thought was "wait, how high is it?" I found out the ranking was indicated by your level not your number, then I looked at the ranking order and found out I was pretty low.
Proceed with the funeral music and distraught attitude. Played my first ranked match, won. Felt great, played second and lost. Played another and lost. Another loss. Losing streak commences, I'm even more desperate until I get about 8 or 9 losses (I stopped counting). Yet, I go back to normals and not only am I carrying several times harder, but I'm WINNING. What am I doing wrong? (ignore my last game, I was eating+playing new champ+ playing one of my weakest spots) I don't know how to replay my matches so I can review and think of how to make better plays. I don't know why I was put in a ranking where I get roflstomped while my team continues to swear at me and say im a troll and that im feeding and etc. Is there any way to improve or should I keep losing and hope it puts me into a more realistic bracket? Its really demotivating to play matches and know when it starts you are going to lose. And to have to put your entire team on mute when it starts as well because you know how ugly the chat is going to get.
=/ I am at a loss and very tempted to uninstall because I can't proceed in ranked and all matches in ranked incur a highly toxic team because I don't want to make them all dodge queue when they realize I suck. At all. I don't even have people to queue with anymore because they either aren't on or tell me they don't want to lose LP. Very bad environment. If I want to see how I'm doing, I play ranked. Then I lose. Then I spam ARAM or Team Builder until I get enough confidence to go weather the storm once more. Then I lose. And it cycles.
