I need help
I've been in bronze for two seasons. Last Season was my first year playing league, and when I played ranked, I got to bronze 1 immediately. I blew off ranked for the rest of the season 7, and the came back to it at season 8. I'm a toplane main, specifically and Urgot one trick, and believe I have fairly good Micro skills on Urgot. I've gotten into the trap where I blame my team for lost games and blame riot for their unintentional nerfs on my main (See here for my full rant: https://boards.na.leagueoflegends.com/en/c/gameplay-balance/uHPy8lHF-urgot-leagues-most-forgotten-rework), when in the end, I know that while I have the micro skills to get out of bronze 1 and into silver, i refused to accept that my macro skills may be to blame for my rank.
I just want to know how I can improve my macro skills, such as shot-calling, how to shove/freeze waves, how to improve my laning experience, and how to successfully let the enemy push while still maintaining good CS. I know all of this sounds simple, but I'm struggling and need advice to help me climb out of this elo hell. Any advice is appreciated.