Feels so bad

Played probably around 2000+ games since honor came out. When honor came out I held lvl 2 for a while and dropped to lvl 0 locked honor. After 2000 games+ I finally hit honor 1 checkpoint 3, and threw it all away in my Platinum promos. Now I find out, I won't be getting any reward for the 1500 hours I put into the game, feels so bad man. Honor progression is slow, and especially slow for me because, I can keep my cool, but I still have some of those games where I just can't hold it in, sets me so far back man.