Why did I have lost this game ? (not a cancer rant)

Hi Alright I don't really know were to put that topic that might be suppressed because it was in the wrong section like each one of my topics (sadlife) but I'm gonna put that on Gameplay. I'm Bronze 3 with an average MMR I've just lost a normal game with Shen today. You probably don't care and that's great (omg i'm so edgy wow). But like 1 week ago, i've made a whiny ass rant named "I'm stuck in bronze 4" (not anymore it seems btw). I was blaming my teammates (and myself too, at least a lil bit) for loosing promo while everything was perfectly fine in casual ranked games. According to the poll at the end, 6 people think i'm unlucky, 9 bad at this game, 4 both and 5 that i'm a fucking stupid whiny bitch Well I already knew that I was bad at this game and I still think i'm not the luckiest person but if I was stuck in Bronze 3 it's only (or almost) because I'm bad at this game (not a stuning new). And I also think I'm kinda a whiny bitch but i don't feel like i'm stupid so that's great :D. Anyway, let's go back to this topic (which is related to my whiny rant) and see if I learned something about the 33 comments (thanks btw).

Only read this shit if ur bored cuz thats not really short (not very long neither)

First (that wasn't really my fault but not at all the fault of any of my teammates that has nothing to do with them) I had some connexion problems and i only could access to the game almost 4 min after everyone, so that's 4 min where any of my allies couldn't have had any gank from our jungle (cuz he was toplane where I should have been during this 4 mins)

So I'm gonna give u the context (is it a word that exists in English ? Idrk i'm just a 17y old french girl i'm not fluent in English) In my team there was 3 unranked (Ivern, Tresh and Azir), and 2 bronze 3 (Vayne and myself Shen). Against us there was 1 bronze 3 (Sona), 2 silver 5 (Veigar and Lee Sin), 1 silver 2 (Lucian), and 1 gold 5 (Zed) (with really bad MMR i guess) My jungle at the beginning and then me were against the gold 5 (who was Zed top, btw, why not) So it was obvious that (except if our unranked players were used to play only normals/smurfs) it would be pretty hard but I couldn't knew at the moment, I would have liked having the possibility to check that on lolskill but I had some co problems as i already said. Our score was 12/24 with 14.4k gold behind (they got 10/0 turret and 2/1 drake). I was 4/1/3 with 171 cs which is not that bad actually but stats are stats, not like a level or something... Anyway, so I already gave my first error (if we can call that an error). But that wasn't my only mistake.

In this game that lasted 30 min i've landed only 7 ults with shen, which is meh, kinda awkward because i could've use them more. And guess how many times I ganked botlane with my ults ? 0, what a great player I am (but I only play Shen since today plus I'm bronze 3 so that's normal I'm not used to ult, but still, 0 ganks botlane this is really bad). Also, I didn't ganked enough in general, so shame on me for that, I was almost like Nasus players or trynda mains (without really pushing).

So this is an image (hope u can see it) about damage dealt and everything cuz I'm a huge fan of stats. But that also lead us to another mistake.

I've put 8 wards. That is really nothing, I mean I was almost always with 2 free wards (i can't even talk english that's great really). I've bought 1 pink ward in this game so that could have been worst but I really need to think more about buying/putting wards.

I'm sure I've done others mistakes and a lot more of stupid stuff than the one that I just said like pinging missing ennemies (zed) only until 10/15 seconds where he was out of my vision, but I was lucky he was worse that Nasus players about ganking (he had less kills and assists than me on a team with 2x the kills of mine), or like not letting kills to my adc (she was 1/5/4 I think, so she couldn't do that much) or having tier 1 boots during all the fucking game.

But there is two things that I have done right i think (plus 1 thing that a good Shen player would do)

First I bought more than 1 potion. Idk why but often after the first back I don't buy any potion (especially with Galio who is my principal main but he's not the one that need the most some potions (rip mana potions)) I think overall I've bought about 8 potions this game

and I also bought my items in fonction of my ennemies and the situation, not the items i usually buy on Shen (well in fact most of them are the item I usually buy on Shen but in this case they were appropriate ; Sunfire Cape cuz I was matching a Zed and it was kinda easy for me to always be in melee with him at each trade, and then Spirit Visage cuz the Veigar was atm really huge (then it was the Lucian)). Btw is Shen strong against Zed ? Cuz even if I was behind in farm and lvl (due to my 4min afk) I was above at each trade and the Zed was gold 5 so I don't really understand but anyway. And then because we were really behind i decided to bought a ZZ'rot (I wanted to find a way to push while being able to defend my inhib tower + this object has MR and armor, and because we were behind and because Lucian and Veigar were huge, I needed tanky stats).

So that's it, now if u've read all this topic thank u, but what are you doing with your life rn ? (I said that but I took the time to write it so that's not better kappa). If you want u can say that I'm really good in english (what i'm gonna write is useless don't read that mess) (y i know i'm kinda an attention whore but i don't care for me whore isn't an insult a job is a job and nothing else (i'm feminist if ya want to know but not radfem or sjw those people piss me off men and women are both great and there's no reason to be offended by everything i'm just for equal treatment)

I hope my tittle wasn't clickbait and if it was then fuck me but be careful cuz i'm not 18 so that might be illegal

And I'm gonna add a poll cuz I like polls (I think it'll be very cringy but I don't really care cuz I'm cringy all the fucking time)