looking for a constancy coach in the jungle

i play lots and lots of jungle games, and like all low low level games, they range from me having near perfect games in a match up im supposed to lose.. to losing a 5v4 because i didnt make the right call or i didnt know how to push an advantage... point being i have worked hard to improve this season and despite my ranked win % shooting up nearly 20% this season, i'm still unable to advance anywhere... at 1st i figured it was my attitude and to some extent maybe it still is.. i stuggle to reassure my team mates i can win the the game, i stuggle to keep a cool head as i lose my 2nd buff bc bot lane was sitting in brush... and yet sometimes still, even if i get a perfect start i can still get my ass kicked and then i lose control because i get flamed for being bad etc, etc.

a quick scan of my match history will show you i know how to win.. i just want to win more.. i'm not looking for someone to make me 'better' by copying builds and champs and what not.. im looking for someone who can see the value in my effort based playstyle, and help me fine tune it

things to understand

• except on very rare ocassions with close friends i am a jungle only player, because it is where im most effective
• right now my focus is on AS based jungles like noc ww vi. because of the low mechanical intensity
• the reason for the above point is that i have Cerebral Palsy.. and while this is not an excuse for bad play it does give you an idea of my limitations.. generally i like to stay away from lane is because it requires more movement and has less margin for error
• kill steal does not exist.. it is a team game and a fed sona is just as good as a fed shaco or a fed kat.. it doesnt matter who gets kills it matters who destroys the nexus.. anyone who disagrees with this statement need not apply, our gameplay styles will not mesh well
• i generally will never ever jungle without runic affinity because i see no real benefit to having 10-20 more ad early, if i lose my buffs faster... i tend not to play for the early game, this is a source of much frustration for my team mates who may or may not expect ganks every 30 seconds.. im sure some kind soul has numbers he or she can show me as to why im wrong and why i need to' uninstall newb 420'

i welcome all feed back, it is currently around 8 pm ET as i post this and i'll be running solo q until 2 am or so :)