a recent story how a player told me to neck myself and how it turned out to make me feel a bit dirty

so, i was a jungler and there was that tristana who was slow to respond for dragon calls and it led us to lose 3 dragons

i began calling her on that (by the standards of this community i'm a mean person :3) and she responded unusually violent, with some filtered out slurs (i didn't bother to turn off the filter), possibly even those which are tabooed by riot, and also with asking to neck myself

now, having a team which cusses at each other but still plays together, helps and defends each other, only charges me to play better, i even enjoy it in a bit weird way, so i wasn't insulted by her slurs, but i was very mad about losing three dragons so i promised to report her and, to tease her, i added that it could even be permaban worthy. that was clearly hypocritical on my side considering how i am strongly against this silly permaban policy

we won that game, i still was mad about the three dragons (one feel such a failure of a jungler when it happens in a close game) and so i reported half of my team who let it happen and even reported that trist for her careless words i didn't believe my report would really do anything or i wouldn't have done it, it was a pure venting

about ten minutes passed and when i was in the queue for another game i got a message that somebody was punished due to my report. it struck me unpleasantly. i didn't wish anything bad to them! it was a few days ago and i still feel like a snitch, and hope that it wasn't that tristana or, if it was she, she wasn't punished too tough or, if she was, she would forgive me ><