What I've learned after having 4 permabanned accounts
Edit: (yes I know this will only make people downvote harder. oh well.) -3 already after just a minute or two. I'm really sorry this isn't a "I'm so sorry for flaming I will never do it again I love everyone and feeding and trolling is totally okay!!!!" post that Riot expects out of us banned players, but I really don't believe that taking shit from everyone is the solution to my problem.
So today, my fourth account was permabanned. I'm not going to delve into whether it was justified or not, because I guess it was and I'm sure the entirety of the boards would string me up and feed me to insects if I even tried to defend a single one of my chat logs.
Anyways, the point of this post is to share with you a few things I've learned as a toxic player. Here goes.
No matter what, you're always in the wrong. It doesn't matter if the other guy is intentionally feeding, it doesn't matter if they're name calling, it doesn't matter if they started the flame way, it doesn't matter if they're begging for reports in all chat, it doesn't matter if they're blatantly lying about what you're saying or doing. You are always in the wrong. Riot doesn't give a fuck about justice, the community doesn't give a fuck about justice, you just have to learn to keep your mouth shut and take whatever dicking you get.
It's much easier to intentionally feed and get away with it. If you can learn to not care about your accounts ranking, you can just "accidentally" feed 5 kills in lane and make sure there's no chance of winning the game for your team. This is a lot more effective than trying to argue with another toxic shitbag, and it has the bonus of guaranteeing a loss for that douchebag (and you get a loss too because you're just as bad as he is!) Plus, it's pretty hard to detect intentional feeding, especially when you're a mid-silver shitter like me. The negatives are you're causing a loss for 3 potentially innocent teammates, but in my experience, those 3 fuckers were going to report you for flaming the 0/6/1 shit talking Xin Zhao jungle anyways, so fuck em.
Being the bigger person doesn't feel good at all. You just end up having to take all the shit people want to say to you, which makes you play worse, which causes even more of your teammates to talk shit. The worst part is, you type like 3 messages in retaliation and you're automatically x4 reported and 20 game chat restricted.
Enjoy the good games. Every one in a while, you get a game where you're playing well, your team is playing well, and everyone's having a good time joking around and talking, etc. Remember those games. When every account you own gets banned, you can still think about the few fun times you had playing this piece of shit of a game. I still have fond memories of adding a ton of randos during season 3 and just chatting them up after game because we had so much fun in game. It seems like that rarely happens anymore, if ever, but I'm not sure if that's just perception bias, or maybe I'm more of a toxic shitbag now than I was then.
Don't get your account back while grinding to 30. I'm pretty sure it's against the rules to mention acquiring an account through any other means, so I won't address that here, but I will tell you that getting a level 28 account banned felt shittier than getting my last 2 silver accounts banned. I couldn't even get into ranked before I flamed too hard. That's kinda just sad. Oh well.
I know I'm supposed to take full accountability for everything I said, but I just can't understand how a troll or another toxic player isn't at fault AT ALL in these situations. Maybe I'll learn to control myself better the fifth time around.
Sidenote, are there any games you enjoy more than League nowadays? I've never had an issue with flaming in other games, but I haven't been able to find one that interests me as much as League in a while.