So i get unbanned today...

And i wanted to better myself, then i read a post on how i cannot receive my ranked rewards... and its like... why try now, even if I reach my goal of 100% not raging, it wont matter. Then i look at why i've been banned and literally every single game i have been toxic was because of 3 types of players..

player a) the feeder - If you feed ON purpose i probably called you an asshole. (walking into towers 16 times a game pisses some people off) player b) the abuser - When i have done nothing but make 1 single mistake and you abuse me and cuss me out, i probably reacted. player c) the non tryer - I probably got frustrated when i see you doing nothing but watching as the entire team dies in a teamfight that you were present at, but you never hit somebody once.

I get it, yeah im an asshole, i understand im not the best, i understand that im not the worst but looking back at why i was banned these times was kind of disappointing. I was always mad because of players that wanted to do nothing but make this game hell for me. I dont cuss at people who are trying and trying to get better at this game, i cuss at the ones who make this game shit and hold people back from their goals.

Yeah, maybe i deserved the ban. Maybe i deserve to get my rewards stripped from me and my hard work gone to complete waste. But nobody deserves those types of people, the thing that annoys me the most though is that these people (aside from player b) arent being punished nearly as much as I or any other reactant players have been. To put this into perspective, I have played ~1500 games to get to where i am. For about 200-300 of those games i have been held back by such arrogant people who cant put their last game behind them. I dont carry a grudge into my next game, but in the heat of a moment, when you are adding to the 150 hours that people have wasted, you are just stressing me out.

Maybe its cliche for me to say that i am trying to be nicer, but honestly if those 3 players didnt exist i dont think i would ever have been punished or chat restricted. It seems unfair that the trolls are winning in all the wrong ways. The feeders dont get banned. Oh he just had a bad game. 0-17 is not a bad game my friend. If i saw you walk into a tower 4 times for a suicide, im pretty sure it was intentional. But they wont get punished right? I suppose i still want to be nicer, but i cant receive awards now and that just completely destroyed my motivation to reform myself...

Not everybody means to be a dick, i guess im that person that is stuck in a bad situation like thousands of others. GG trolls, you've actually won.