I want to curl up into a ball and cry

Not because I lost my promos to get into gold 5 with 2 wins and 2 losses and one disconnection during select for the final match.

but because my dumb ass went ahead and q'd up for the rebound game at 90 LP.... and lost to a teemo top with the easter skin and ignite.

Then I went ahead and joined another game and am counted as a leaver, this time for 30 minutes for once again... getting dc'd in the champion select.

I don't even like ranked. I just want gold yo :(