I just need someone to talk to

Everyone i know is asleep or just not paying attention at the moment

i was diagnosed last year with testicular cancer (2 months after my step father died from stage 4 brain cancer) I caught it super early so i was told i only had to undergo two sugary (i guess i had super early stage 1 cancer they couldnt tell what it was with out taking the testicle) the second sugary was to remove some lymph nodes just in case it came back my cancer doctor an the doctor i had before him gave it like a 90-95% chance of never coming back but im still afraid it will (dont go to google for answers for things like that)

my anxtiey is reaking havok on me right now