A Tribute to a Lost Friend

Nockos·Nov 7, 2016·308 votes·7,505 views

So the person that got me into this game 4-6 years ago recently passed away. I wanted to make a tribute to him that will possibly be lost in the boards.

His IGN is FunDipKing and he died from suicide because of depression. But he did love this game and loved Volibear the most. I remember him getting me into this game and my first champ being Soraka.

I just wanted to make a tribute to him since he was actually a fairly decent person.

Rest In Peace man, I will miss you greatly.

122 Comments

ModWuksNov 7, 201671 votes

In respecting other players, I often give the advice to see those players as more than just IGN's and champions, but as real individuals. I'm absolutely saddened to hear that you've lost someone who's had a positive impact on you and your experiences with the game, and for that, I'm sorry for your loss. I haven't lost any of my friends on League of Legends, so I can't say that I know what you're feeling, but my heart aches for you and your friend's loved ones. I wish you all the best, and if you need someone to talk to, my sleeping habits are at that level of jacked up where I can pretty much say that I'm usually available.

My deepest condolences.

NockosNov 8, 20164 votes

The worst part is he used to go to school with me before we graduated. We would hang out and play some matches. He was a legitimate good person and always found a way to cheer people up or help them.

GayFluffyUnicornNov 8, 20162 votes

May i ask why you call him a "fairly decent" person then? In my understanding that sounds rather negative to neutral at best. Maybe i just missunderstood that phrase since english is not my native tongue. Would be nice if you could elaborate that for me. Just asking because i'm actually like the guy you lost. Suicidal and depressive but always good in being there for other people to cheer them up and such so that story may touch me more than other people because i can relate.

NockosNov 8, 20163 votes

I believe nobody can be completely good or completely evil.

When I say "fairly decent" i mean that he, overall, was a good person with good morals. Despite his flaws and mistakes, he was a better person than me in all honesty.

I want to remember him as a good person who had their flaws, but used their flaws to make themselves better.

MelledoneusNov 7, 201664 votes

Volibear "Let the storm follow in his wake."

Pierce The VealNov 7, 201627 votes

Suicide...

I've contemplated it many times myself. But it's just not worth it... It's no escape.

EightisNov 7, 20168 votes

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affectionedNov 7, 201625 votes

not cool man

Rew711Nov 8, 20162 votes

Its funny though. How is it that people tend to think they find an answer that makes no sense and yet when explained why its not the way they should take things... they do it anyway. Suicide only does a few things; makes people sad, gives the deceased a moment of fame, the deceased chose to die by their own hands, doesn't fully understand the consequences.

Life is hard, and there will be grim days a head. Yet, the darker the day, the brighter tomorrow might be.

GayFluffyUnicornNov 8, 20167 votes

How can people be so fucking ignorant. For real. I'm so sick of hearing "life is hard that's how it is ". If you are not depressive (and i talk about depressive not "omg im sad cuz my boyfriend broke up") you will never understand how it is and have no right to talk like that about it. It's not just being sad or looking for an easy wayout and especially noone is looking for "fame". Depressive people are introvert about their problems hence most find out about it AFTER they commit suicide.

Rew711Nov 9, 20161 votes

I wish people wouldn't down vote troll like this.

You make it sound like depressed people only have one way to ease their pain.

Sorry for adding the trigger-word "fame" into it. Not much else to be said here but an apology on that as it was uncalled for.

GayFluffyUnicorn, until you (yourself) accept the fact that you are going to have to struggle through life, I'm not sure how this conversation will go. But, there is an alternative to believing this... Life is only as hard as you make it out to be. That's what I believe and I never said "life is hard, that's how it is" because that contradicts what I said here and in my original statement.

Killing yourself is pretty selfish in my opinion, and I'm not afraid of the down votes for this one. And you defending it doesn't make it better. How are we going to prevent anymore people from this If we can't at least help them through the rut in their lives?

There is bound to be a reason for them to keep living if they keep trudging on, even if they are in emotional trauma. You need to be there to comfort them, yes, but you can't shelter them from life.

I'm sorry for the death of his friend and mean no ill will but geez, depression is not something you are born with and its only temporary. Stay close to your friends and look for signs. I can only hope no one I know is depressed. I'm not much of a motivational speaker and I aspire to better that. Little by little, people listen to me, and I try and do my best to be kind, not curse, and lead an example of someone who is nice no matter how mean someone is to me.

Supreme Senpai69Nov 8, 20164 votes

They don't care. There's a difference between life being hard and being depressed. Depression isn't sadness. It's literally a void of emotion. They would love to feel sad or to feel anything but they don't, and they don't see a way out or a reason to stay in. It's a real problem.

XIII VanitasNov 7, 20164 votes

If you feel that way, you should talk with a psychologist. Sometimes speaking your mind to someone that understands is really helpful.

Pierce The VealNov 7, 20163 votes

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If you feel that way, you should talk with a psychologist. Sometimes speaking your mind to someone that understands is really helpful.

Perhaps...

LA LostyNov 7, 20163 votes

Ive never wanted to do it myself but ive thought about the outcome and ive realised that its one of the most selfish things someone could do. Everyone have loved ones, even if they dont think so. Depressed/suicidal people might not realise this but people DO care about them, stay strong people! I read this quote once "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem".

GayFluffyUnicornNov 8, 20163 votes

Is it my life? Or yours? Is it the life of my "loved ones"? Or is it the one of the suicidal? How can you call that "most selfish thing"? Ofc it is selfish. It's not the others who have to suffer so it is not for others to judge.

Man0nFireNov 7, 201619 votes

I'm sorry for your loss. There is solace in knowing that you were a reason he had to look forward to living one more day and playing league. Take some comfort in that fact even if it is hard to see any good.

ShatteredSkysNov 7, 201613 votes

I'm sorry for your loss T_T . Not really sure what to say as I've never been in that position but I wish you the best.

Chewbacca MerkinNov 7, 201613 votes

So many league players could learn from this.

ScrimshäwNov 7, 20166 votes

learn what? that i should kill myself because this game depresses me?

Ben SharpioNov 7, 201611 votes

Why be a dick about it?

ScrimshäwNov 7, 20163 votes

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Ben SharpioNov 7, 201610 votes

It should be treated like a memorial. Nothing wrong with that

Fondling GemsNov 7, 20167 votes

Out of respect for the deceased I will shush the Zilean inside of me and not insult a Volibear player. I hope he lived a life that he can be proud of, as that is all we can hope for in the end. May you rest peacefully FunDipKing, and may your dreams have not been in vain.

rtbf225618241Nov 7, 20167 votes

It may get lost in the Boards but it won't get lost in us.

May he rest in Eternal Peace.

TheEvilQueen135Nov 7, 20167 votes

i'm sorry for your loss :(

Malphite me broNov 7, 20167 votes

As someone who has attempted suicide before... I know how hard things can get. Luckily I was unsuccessful but I express my sincerest condolences to you and your friend :(

KylozNov 7, 20165 votes

Super sorry for your loss, I hope the best for you.

Kingdom CornNov 8, 20165 votes

Please if you are thinking about committing suicide then don't do it. PLEASE I beg you talk to someone you know that is close to you if not then call the suicide hotline or if you don't wanna do that call someone that can help you treat your depression/unwillingness to live. Killing yourself is a 1 way ticket to who knows where... And where ever that place is you ain't coming back.

If you really are tired of living and don't enjoy life... Then live for me, for the people that enjoy seeing your beautiful face everyday with your uniqueness!

GayFluffyUnicornNov 8, 20163 votes

Talking as someone who is actually suicidal: Everyone knows it yet noone actually cares or doesn't take it serious. (atleast that's how i feel about it). I've tried to go to a psychologist and all they want to do is drug me but that's not the kind of help i seek. I don't want to end like an addicted and be a wreck my whole life when i can atleast live with my depression atm. So what can i do?

MEMEME670Nov 8, 20162 votes

Everyone knows it yet noone actually cares or doesn't take it serious. (atleast that's how i feel about it).

You may want to ask the people you care about (presumably these are the ones you talk to about such things) if they care or take it seriously. Depression is very difficult on the person afflicted, but it is also difficult on the people who want to help them, for a ton of different reasons. I can go into it more in-depth if you'd like, although I can't garauntee I'll be able to know exactly what the people close to you are going through. If you want to know that you'll have to ask them.

I've tried to go to a psychologist and all they want to do is drug me but that's not the kind of help i seek

It seems silly to me to assume the psychologist is doing something other than what is in your best interests. I'm Canadian, so perhaps if you live in the US the perceptions are different, but as far as I understand it psychology isn't like being a doctor or an engineer, people don't go into it because of the money, they go into it because they want to help people.

So, this person who took like 10 years (at least in Canada, but I'm sure it's still a long time everywhere else) of school+practice so they could know what's best for you in these scenarios is giving you their advice, and you're saying no because you don't trust them? Why don't you trust them?

I'm not saying that one specific psych can't be mistaken for whatever reason, or even misdiagnosing on purpose (although I think that's gotta be extremely rare). But if you believe that for whatever reason, you should be able to see a different one, yes? And if you do and they give the same advice, why wouldn't you take it?

I don't want to end like an addicted and be a wreck my whole life when i can atleast live with my depression atm. So what can i do?

Firstly, I want you to know that even asking for help here is something, and you've done well. Secondly, I think in your situation you should be looking at what's preventing you from moving forward, and then once you can move forward, figure out how, and then do it (step by step, of course. Not all at once.) It will take a while, but that's okay. It's not a race, you just move as quickly or as slowly as you're comfortable with, as long as your putting your best effort in.

Feel free to pm me if you want to talk or anything. That goes for anyone reading this btw, even if it's not about depression. I can't guarantee I'll know what you're going through, or even that I'll be able to help you, but I can guarantee that I'll be happy to hear from you, and that I'll do my best to help you however I can.

Kingdom CornNov 8, 20161 votes

I just asked my friend who has helped many people b4 with their depression, he said that u should try and avoid the things that make you depressed, and find a thing that you enjoy doing and keep doing that fun thing. This can be anything from playing league to maybe a hobby like photography or something like that. If you are still having trouble pls give me a way to contact u, me and my friend are happy to help you. :)

Georgiaboy1690Nov 7, 20164 votes

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Around999PeopleNov 7, 20164 votes

I'm really sorry for your loss. I had a friend die on me in another game and I know how hard it is on you.

Best of luck and I'm sure a lot of people will play voli at least once today as a tribute. I known I will.

GudLunchHavFriesNov 8, 20164 votes

Oh dear...I'm sorry for your loss. The guy's family as well as his friends such as yourself will be in my prayers.

Still, I hope you can still enjoy the rift n stuff. GLHF out there, both in life and in game.

Russian DollNov 7, 20163 votes

Sorry for your loss! May he rest in peace.

eddieStacksNov 7, 20163 votes

That's terrible, be strong though man. I was shellshocked for months after my friend passed, it gets easier as time passes but you never forget. Let his passing be motivation for your future, life is short and precious. I will q a few voli games in memory of our fellow summoner today. Take care my friend and keep your head up.

Leon EtoileNov 7, 20162 votes

Why make a tribute for a coward? If they gave a shit about you; they wouldn't have willingly left you.

This is coming from someone who has been hospitalized with depression, ptsd and anxiety while having suicidal thoughts to make flashbacks of childhood sexual abuse stop.

midnight oil24Nov 7, 20165 votes

What is wrong with you?! Someone's friend just died. It doesn't matter if you've had suicidal thoughts, what you said is just plain wrong.

Leon EtoileNov 7, 20162 votes

He didn't die in some way that deserves tribute.

He made a decision that has nothing to do with anyone else.

midnight oil24Nov 7, 20166 votes

It's less that this guy is tributing the way his friend died, and more that he's paying tribute to his friend in a place that mattered to the friend. Sure, his suicide doesn't have anything to do with us, but that doesn't mean he's not worthy of tribute. I wish this man were still in this world, but I don't think that what he did was cowardly like you said up there.

GayFluffyUnicornNov 8, 20163 votes

It is NOT cowardly. Whoever says that can go fuck themselves. I'm sucidical for years and attempted once since then i'm actually AFRAID of doing it there is still this small glimpse of hope inside which keeps me going and imo it is the opposite of being a coward. It takes a lot of guts to actually do it from MY POINT OF VIEW (just in case i get flamed). But yeah that whole comment section and the post itself brings me to tears currently so idk what i'm writing.

EightisNov 7, 20162 votes

Who Cares

midnight oil24Nov 7, 20162 votes

Why post if you don't care?

Ravenous HowlsNov 7, 20164 votes

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Why post if you don't care?

He's being a troll and the poster child for why some people should have license to breed...

Edit: This is in response to the guy above acting like someone taking their life is nothing to be sad or empathize with. The only time suicide is cowardly is when those who have ruined other people's lives kill themselves to skirt being punished in this life. When someone takes their life out of despair or depression then it is a tragedy.

Troll for TrumpNov 7, 20161 votes

Not really. Then it's just being weak, as a person. Ones who should be acknowledged are those who can overcome depression.

No, drugging out is not overcoming depression.

This is obviously an unpopular opinion and goes against the circlejerk. Still.

Ravenous HowlsNov 8, 20161 votes

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Not really. Then it's just being weak, as a person. Ones who should be acknowledged are those who can overcome depression.

No, drugging out is not overcoming depression.

This is obviously an unpopular opinion and goes against the circlejerk. Still.

Well then I suggest you circlejerk alone and kindly piss off. Your like those ignorant simians who protest military funerals b/c they let homosexual individuals serve their country with honor and dignity. You have no right to speak ill of the departed. You did not know him, what he struggled with, what made him happy. You just run your mouth arbitrarily without facts or reason and only to spew the poison of your own cancerous bias.

GayFluffyUnicornNov 8, 20162 votes

So sad you actually get downvoted....

Ravenous HowlsNov 8, 20162 votes

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So sad you actually get downvoted....

IKR?! Anyway some people come here looking to act as if they got it all figured out. They can't walk in someone else's shoes without trying to interject their own life experience into it.

I feel you on depression though. I used to walk that line a long time ago and my demons were many... But I got through it with some good friends and an enlightened state of mind. I consider myself fortunate not brave. This person clearly didn't have the people and circumstances I had and their demons won. It's not cowardice it's despair. Dark endless hopelessness and that's why people choose the absolution of death, not because they fear life but because they find nothing of value in it, including themselves.

I hope one day the voices of your demons die, like mine did. They don't ever truly go away I think but your own voice becomes stronger and you when you receive that clarity it transforms you...