I guess I've been taking my anger out..

Through the forums. My inner hate for things that are in my control, but just outside my mental grasp. To be honest, Its pathetic the way I've acted- and horrifying. What makes a decent human being? Is it being generous? Kind? Compassionate? Is it our actions? What makes a terrible one? Is it how much we hate? Could hate be something outside the true control of human nature? Why am I allowing myself to be such a hateful person.. Is it the grief that we cause others? Is it the sadness and misery that is spread from our minds? Maybe those who are terrible weren't terrible before. They fell into this depression, this sadness, this hatred. They lost what ever they had. The happiness that was given to them. Maybe it was their fault that they lost that happiness in the first place and they can't get it back. Do we consider ourselves to be adept in the knowledge of how others feel? Can I even make that assumption? What is a person who doesn't feel? Mistakes that feel like they can't be mended. Feelings that remove any positiveness. The seed placed within one's self that one may just be useless, or pointless. That one's person was created as a mistake, a stepping stone for something better that one wouldn't achieve. A mistake that was never corrected. Left to be broken with no hopes of being glued back together, no hopes of ever being whole. But one's self is not a mistake. One's creation is not a mistake. Don't think for second that one or one's self is a mistake. You were worthy enough to be given life. You're here. You're alive. You have purpose. You have meaning. You walk this earth. You have feeling.

You're worth it.

You have this undeniable self value that can't be tarnished no matter what. Because your creation means you're worth it. You've been given the greatest gift that can't be tarnished by anything God-given thing on this earth, in this universe. You've been given life. A life. A being.

So don't go throwing one's self around, calling one's self a mistake. You're worth more than that. Don't believe for one second that you should feel belittled by someone's character, that they're better. That they're worth more.

Don't go letting others belittle you either. Telling you that you aren't worth it. Because the truth is,

You Are.